sooooo bloated...i was 119.5 on the scale this morning....that is a good 5 lbs of bloat....my mind is telling me that that is 5 true lbs and in no time at all, im gonna be a bonafide FATASS....im fearing that i am in that state that i fear the most...the state of gaining weight....i dont wanna lose weight....but when i do lose it, im sort of relieved cuz it's reassurance that i am not in that dreaded state....if that makes any sense to anyone but sick and twisted meim back feeling like im on the outside looking in at my family....i know that it doesn't have to be this way...it's my fault that it is.....i went to my grandparents' house tonight and i got a whole earful of "missy u need to start eating" "missy what would u like to eat?" "do u like turkey?" "how about some soup?" "have u had dinner yet?" "ur parents aren't happy with u at all at the moment" (haha as if i didnt know that one already right?).....im so sick of being told that i need to start eating...when did i stop? i eat every fucking day! not as much as my body needs mind u....but food still passes my lips every god given day!was supposed to hang out with my bff and another good friend of mine b4 6 o clock cuz they both had fam dinners to get to....but being without money, and energy....i ended up not doing anything with them....i told them that they could come over and watch shrek 3....but i had gone to the theaters to see it with them when it first came out....so that was a no go....took back the sneakers that i had bought my bf for his bday and decided to not give him til xmas since we havent been dating that long....and im glad i waited cuz i dont think that this relationship is gonna last too much longer...and i would have been out $50.....i took that money and bought the pinata that im gonna put all of my bff's xmas presents that i buy her into....she's gonna have to whack the pinata open to get to her presents....lol and the pinata is so big and bulky...it's gonna be hilarious....such a missy thing to do360 is the magic number today....don't deserve anything more after this miraculous and odd 5 lb weight uppage....
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What a huge pinata that must be, the puny things we get here can only have sweets put into them, no present will fit in. How did you get it into your car?he-he... You sound as though you\'re in a good mood today, with a great sense of humour.
Dude and you were yelling at me the other day when I was bitching about my 5 lb gain. HELLO!!!!
I am so sorry that you are having to put up with these comments. I wish they could here what truly goes through our heads and how much we struggle. Continue to be strong, and my friend remember, although you are going to hate me for saying this, 5lbs is making you a healthier you. A stronger and happier you.
Ahhhhh! I hate the bloat too Graaaa! I never knew you had a Boyfriend, I guess then that explains your comment about it not lasting too much longer. LOVE the pinata idea. And not even going to comment on 360 hmmmmmm
girl!did yuu say yu KNEW that yuur realy are skinny?yur not fat!!!
i know its impossiable to see,cause sometimes i wonder what i see compared other people.
and omg.i loveeee the pinata idea :DDD
I don\'t see how 5 pounds of bloat would make a healthier you. You\'ll probably just pee it out. Sounds you don\'t care much about the health aspect of it because your fear of gaining is too powerful. I\'ve walked a mile in your shoes girlfriend so I speak your language. XOXO