holy shit...the snow fairies have pounded us here in upstate ny for the first time this winter.....im sure that there is more to come...there always is here....at the moment, we are covered in the white stuff...ughhappy thanksgiving my friends! hope u are all coping well! i myself have survived this shitty excuse for a holiday.....i pulled my old trick of getting myself a plate, sitting at the table, and playing with the food....scooping it into my napkin when no one was looking.....and well...no one was none the wiser.....and omg...my parents are actually treating me like dare i say it? a human being! and not an ED!....guess them seeing me putting turkey and fattening stuffing on my plate makes them happy.....god...i feel like one of pavlov's dogs though....only im being conditioned to learn that my parents will only love me if i eat their food...if i do not eat their food, then i will be outcast and spit upon.....god what a fucked up social experiment this is huh?.....well i didnt eat a bite of thanksgiving food...im still gonna eat 360 cals of my own food.....god i feel like such a fat ass....i had to cut down my cal intake today to that number cuz well...i didnt do anything today...just kind of layed around the house....its days when i just lay around the house that makes my eating suffer the most....blah.....well my fam and i are gonna play euchre in a bit.....wonder how long i will be treated as a member of the family for
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there is nothing worse then conditional love. we all have our problems but they do not make us who we are inside. i hope someday your family can except your struggles and love you any way. i do hope the eating gets easier for you. you are in my thoughts and prayers. take care and God bless.
*hugs* to you Missy. I\'m glad that you made it through the day. I did too. :)
I\'m so sorry your parents force you to live this life full of tricks and lies. No one should have to live like that in order to feel loved. Please send some snow to Idaho, I want to go skiing in the worst way. XOXO
How is it that you made it through today ok and I\'m the one that is a compleat mess? You were dreading this day and I was looking foward to it. Oh well it\'s over now and I have to wake up in 4 hours from now to start my shopping...
I love the way snow looks when you sit around a fire watching it with a warm cup of tea in hand. ah.
sorry about the family bullshit. maybe they need some good therapy sessions to learn how to treat their daughter with some true love? mwah!
I haven\'t seen snow in ages... God I miss it. It\'s really hot here as we go into Summer... Glad you got through the day:)
hon, i bet they know u put ur food in a napkin, i know my family know... so embarresing.. plus dont u feel so ashamed doing it?? i do. No shame from me baby, we are on the same ship but doesnt ed suck at family times like this?? xxxx
Oh my gosh....your parents should treat you like ahuman being no matter what or how much you eat..maybe then you mightactually have a greater chance to recover.....them acting like that only makes things worse and harder...well glad you survived though...have a good rest of the week...jenny
I am glad to hear that you made it through Thanksgiving safe and sound. I hope it stays that way. Send some snow my way, Its so pretty watching it fall!
Hey there!!! happy thanksgiving to you too. When i was in the states i actually never experienced a proper thanksgiving because my family i worked for always went away so i was actually pretty stoked that i didn\'t have to deal with the food thing.
Can you please eat more than 360 calories? I feel tired just thinking about how tired you must feel with no nutrients in your body
hey babe glad you survived the holiday - i\'m even more glad about the success with your parents - maybe you should keep trying to make them happy, because it seems if they\'re satisfied theres at least a little less pressure on you. and dont be such a snow grinch, cmon.
xoxo
liz
How sad that your family is like that! I have become obese due to the same pressures put on me by my mother and sister, and you\'re very clever at hiding the food in the napkin, I have never thought of that. A clever idea indeed. Don\'t worry too much about them accepting you as it doesn\'t really make you less of a person without their approval. Just keep true to yourself.