well didnt get my space heaters back...but i went out and bought a $60 electric blanket last night (thanks for the idea cass!!! i love u!)...haha ...im such a little shit...now just gotta keep my parents from knowing i have it and i might live this winter!!!i ate 520 calories last night in the name of recovery!....tonight i fear i will be back down in the 400s...but still....i just did it...and i didnt balloon up...in fact i made a point to tell myself today how much more energy i have that i wouldnt have had hadnt i eaten that little bit of extra....stupid i know but i guess its like the placebo effect...tell urself something is true and u will start to believe it and feel it....im such an ED mess....some nights i wanna clean up the mess...other nights i just wanna wallow in it like a pig wallows in his sludgemy "christmas presents" have arrived at my bff's house....goin to pick them up tonight...bwhahahah...let me see my parents take these packages from me! haha they cant! cuz they dont even fucking know about them!!! haha mom and dad...fuck u!!!! these packages are MINE MINE MINE!!!!....u guys know whats sad? ive been thinking about ordering my stuff and having it sent to the abandoned house that is diagonal and a little down the rd from my house...thinking ill just pick it up when its dropped off...and still my parents will be none the wiser...cuz i dont think i can convince my bff that the packages coming to her house are xmas presents for too much longer...might look a little suspicious come january....my teacher didnt show up to class...and i drove a whole 45 min to get here...grrr..not to mention i had been napping under my warm warm warm blanket (which i named hot pocket after cass!!!!)....and now i must get some coffee, get my packages, shower, and go to my grandparents house for my grandpas bday which my grandma insisted i come to no matter how late class would make me for it (my dad so rudely was like "missy dont worry we will be done with the cake by the time u get there"......asshole!)
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Asshole is right. What a fucking.... *zips lips*.. He is so childish. He should really be in some kind of treatment for all the mental abuse he\'s put you through. Whatever, don\'t listen to him..... My dad is the same way, I understand. I just had to let it go that I don\'t have a \'father\'.
Anyways, I was thinking about getting a blanket like that. It\'s so cold... I slept in a full outfit for bed with two thick blankets. Hmmm.. Anyways... Have fun at grandpas!
Ha! You should knock his socks off and have just a bite of the b-day cake!! You know just a bite won\'t hurt and kudos for upping those calories, you will really have more energy from it. Take care and hide that electrical blanket!!
Sorry you have to play these games, but at least you\'re tricky enough to have your needs met. Happy birthday to grandpa and keep uppin\' those calories. Miss Melissa needs her strength. Hugs. XOXOXO
The blanket sounds nice, but I would be careful with it. I heard once that people were getting burned from electical blankets. Maybe put a regular blanket between you and the electrical blanket. 60 dollars is alot of money to spend if you are just going to end up burning yourself.
Doesn\'t it just suck when you drive all the way to school in the cold and your teacher is a no show or when you get there and 5 minutes later the teacher dismisses you? This happened alot when I was in college. It was just like I\'m spending 1000 dollars a class to only be in class for 5 minutes. It\'s like throwing money in the trash.
Why did they take the heater? Are they trying to do their bit for the environment? Anyway I\'m glad hot pocket was there to save the day. I almost laughed when I read what your Dad said (even though it\'s not funny), it\'s just that it could have come straight out of my Father\'s mouth. GrAAA to both of them!
CONGRATS ON eating more...energy is what i told myself to keep me motivated and feelin\' good about eating more...:-) You are such a smart and yet silly girl...I gotta say delivering the packages to an abandonned house..not so bad idea..LOL...I don\'t really understand why your parents are not giving you your spaceheaters..that is really messed up..and unfair...well I hope you\'ll keep you recovery thing going..it\'s only gonna get better even though it may sometimes not seem that way...AND you should definately charge that teacher for GAS!
My parents took away my space heater after i left it on high all night long and melted one of my candles hehe at least i was warm....so yeah i can kinda see where your parents are coming from on that angle because the dam things do use a lot of electric that\'s why my mom got me the electric blanket instead. as for being burned by them as long as your careful about washing it and don\'t let the wires get expossed i don\'t think it can ever burn you. i\'ve slept with mine on high every cold night for the past like 8 or so years and have never been burned by it. i hope you are thinking of me when you cuddle up with hot pocket at night hehe.....FINALLY I get to curl up in bed with you.....to bad i\'m into blonds and curves...gotta have something to hold onto at night;-P
go go go electric blamkets!
hey im so proud of you for upping your calories, well done :) i need an electric blanket too! i get soooooo cold at night i might get one. OMG why would your dad say that you sounds like a moron hope your ok otherwise xx
good job at the healthy self talk! ooh and the blanky!
It\'s great that you are making some progress! You are so brave! I\'m sorry about your dad. What a jerk.