im soooo cold...those bastards (my parents) took my space heater last night without saying a word to me...i think im gonna die this wintercrawled into bed with my sister last night....was feeling like i want help...talked to her and told her that i need help....and i told her that at night i seem to wanna get better...but come morning...bam...full force wanna hang onto ED....and low and behold...at the moment...i am so tied to it that i would refuse any sort of help at the moment....god...im so go stop with this recovery thing....is there such a thing as bi polarness of recovery? if there is, i am it!the only good news i have at the moment is i am not failing my classes as bad as i thought! i have c's as my lowest grades....which isnt too bad since i thought that i was totally fucking everything up...but i had best watch myself so that i dont go down to a D...i cannot forgive a D....i got a 71 on my psych test i took last week...and doing that in the state of mind i am in right now really says something....ED cannot completely stop me...he can only slow me down....but he cannot make me completely faili guess another positive is that work is pretty good...the kids and i r getting closer and closer each day....the first day i was there, i felt like all i did was yell and discipline and that i had no time to play with any of them cuz when 1 was being good, the others needed to be told to stop doing something....but now, it has all changed...i have time to play with them...and sing and read to them....i think that this is because now they listen to me and when i say stop, they do...so i dont have to ask them 5 billion times to do so....thank goodness for small favors....and for hugs from little ones =)
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They took your space heater??? How messed up is that! I know it was probably your Dad, but can you go to your Mom for an explanation? God that chaps my ass. XOXO
NOw that is plain meaness...I would be reallly pissed too...I would have stormed the house for my space heater...well....I\'m glad you\'re not failing your classes...keep up the good work...;)
hugs from little ones r the best! what did ur sis say wen u spoke to her??? xx
i would buy a bigger space heater!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! brrrrrrrrr.
Okay, so now you REALLY need to move out. That\'s just plain malicious. Come stay with me. I crank the heat to 81.
So how is the blanket working out for ya........oh yeah and where are my 100 hugs that you promised to send to me tonight???????
That is wonderful that you were able to go to your sister and tell her how you were feeling! Was she supportive? Maybe she can help you with recovery?!
Cool... I am the same way at night... I am so weak and tired by that time I think I go into a different state of mind. Last night, I was ready to say, take me to a hospital! This morning, I am on the ball with my studies, not eating, etc.... I am the same way.
I hate the cold so much.
I thought I was one of a kind nice to meet a cold hater.
Since my boyfriend and I split I can at last have my house as i like it.
I love my central heating on 30 c , \\i sometimes leave it on all night.
I love my fan heater on in my bathroom, a toasty bath.
I just love heat, always turn it up.
In my car, hotel room etc...
Wierd i may be, but i love it...
Claire x
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