just another day....another same day like every other one....part of this is comforting, and part if it is unnerving....what is life without excitement? yes, it is secure and predictable but is predictablilty really worth what u give up in return? sure, sameness allows me to cling to my ED routine of times and rituals, and at the moment i am loving this aspect of it....but i know that it is this love that will kill me.....will the next break in my routine be only when it comes the day that i do not wake up at all? is that day tmorrow? is it in 80 years? id love to live forever....but only if i could break the chains that ED has locked on me.sorry about the babbling guys...just something i think about....u know, i was thinking today about how i wish that i could get the support that i get on here from the people that i come face to face with everyday (namely my family), but i know that this is not possible...i truely do not think that anyone who does not have an ED will ever really understand them....i was also thinking that if i didnt have an ED myself, id prolly think that u guys were all a few cards short of deck....so i guess to make up for our missing cards we need to throw in a few of the jokers....so keep smiling guys...sometimes that is our only defense from the cold cruelness of reality.
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You\'re so right..I don\'t think my dad ever really understood my ED and stuff..but he was there for support and I guess that\'s all I could ask....:)
Whos to say that you can\'t understand ED? I believe you can. I\'m not saying that it will ever go away, but I believe there is a way to understand it. It\'s called accepting it and being honest and so forth to learn how to deal with why you have an ED. So many times I\'ve looked for answers when the answers have been in my head the whole time. It just takes time.....
Don\'t say sorry for talking.. This is your journal, and you can say whatever you want. I choose to read it because I love your opinions, and I can relate with you.
Jokes are great!
**BIG HUGS** to another day.
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I really related to throwing in a few jokers. Their definately are plenty of jokers in mylife who keep me wrapped up in all the negatives of my life... Hang in their and keep fighting!
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yuur right...people never really understand eds unless they have one...yuu should hear some of the things the people my age say about eds...they are the ones that would sounds crazy to us!
You made me think about something ive been trying to hide in the back of my mind missy.
\"what is life without excitement? yes, it is secure and predictable but is predictablilty really worth what u give up in return\"
I think everyday about what I really want in life, do i want the security of my life and my boyfriend and my job, or do I want the excitement that makes me want to live, that life on the edge where I dont know if ill die tomorrow or not. Sadly, I want that excitement. I want that uncertainty so that I feel Ive done something with life even if it is short.... as for jokers, you know what that song says, they\'re clowns to the left of us and jokers on the right, guess Im stuck in the middle with you :) hugs kiddo.
Danielle
if you don\'t have ed it is really hard if not impossible to understand but i do have a few friends who sure try to educate themselves and i really appreciate that.i understand about the same old day in and day out. boring but atleast perdictable. i hope things get easier for you. i know for me the holidays are going to be a nightmare, i hope they go well for you. ed will fight you all the way but try to fight him, use those jokers.
hey i know the feeling of family not being supportive, mine are like that,its always \"why cant you just eat more?!\" they will never understand and it probably jus frustrates them because they want you to be healthy and well. Also the ED being a routine i get too i just dunno how id cope without it and what sort of coping mechanism would take its place but life has to be better than this? i hope so anyway! x
u are wise beyond ur years missy moo!, love you x
You sound much better today and lol about the \'few cards short of a deck\'. I really appreciated that one. It\'s true what you say about people not having ED will never understand us, because they can\'t relate. Keep your good humour, girl, you\'ll pull through just fine. Love Lizelle