alright, so UPS delivered another box of my very anorexia friendly food that i had ordered to me yesterday.....and i was at school when it was delivered...so my parents took it, opened it, and hid all of it....c'mon now...what are we 2 yrs old?....i didnt ask about where it was...i pretended i didnt even know that they had confiscated it...i just waited til they went to bed and i spent a while searching for it...didnt take long to find it...it was in the basement....if they really wanted to get it away from me they should have dumped it in a dumpster away from the house....although i was thinking about searching the dumpster at the gas station down the road if i had come up empty handed from my house search...but luckily, it didnt come to that....ok i paid for it, so its rightfully mine...and isnt is illegal to open someone elses mail? i cant say anything to my parents cuz they will tell me its their house and im not allowed to have things like that delivered here....guess i need to find somewhere else to have it delivered...i was thinking about asking my bff if i can have some "christmas presents" delivered to her house so that no one knows i ordered them stuff....but that lie only gets me thru til xmas....grrrrwent to work today...then went to my 1st dr appt with my new dr...i love him! he doesnt get on me about my weight and he said hes not going to...he said hes had ana patients in the past and he knows nothing is going to change until i decide its going to change...and that he could hook me up with another couselor if i want to....hes like how do u feel about ur weight? im like im fine with it if u r....hes like im not gonna har on ur weight, u should just know that u should have a bmi of at least 18.5....and he then pick up this dial thing to check my bmi which is really like 15 and he all willy nilly was like o ur fine.....LMFAO.....although truth be told, im hating the scales in drs offices.....at home, im back down to 116.5 (bloat is gone!!! woo hoo!!!) but at the drs office, im 123....granted, at the office im weighed with my sneakers, my jeans, my shirt, and my hoodie on....u know what else is good about this dr change besides it being closer, and him not harping on my ed?....i dont feel compelled to fudge my weight with him...i dont think ill be water loading or wearing that belt made of ankle weights in order to acquire fack weight for my appt....like i told him today, im not expecting him to cure me of my ED, im just asking him to be my primary care physician and give me vaccines, write rxs when im sick, and give me physicals...thats it.....and well, he gave me a flu shot today.....so i think this is gonna work out!........omg one last tid bit about this dr appt....he saw on my sheet that id filled out that i havent had a period for 3 yrs now....and he was like do u have a gyno? i was like nope...then he was like...well i guess u dont need one since ur not having ur period anymore....LMAO! my last dr was trying to force me to go to the gyno because i wasnt having my period anymore.....i think ED has found his dream dr!!!!!!!