body...what the fuck are u doing? i get on the scale and u are 119.5 lbs? wha's with that? huh? i feed u under 500 cals a day...and u gain 2.5 lbs???????? ok ok i know y my body did this....it would be that time of the month if i still got my period...i get all the symptoms just no flow...i get bitchy, tired, bloated,a couple of pimples....but no flow.....grrrr....it's just so easy at the moment to listen to my ED tell me that i'm turning into the good year blimp and that i had best eat less to stop this weight gain....but rationally, i know that this weight will fall off in a week, and probably take another 3 lbs along with it.....alright, this is one of the yrs big fights....who will win in a match...missy's rational mind? or her ED mind?....anyone wanna place a money bet?here are some stats to help aid u in ur decision:Missy's ED mind: has been dominating for the past 5 yrs, and although it has been challenged many times by the rational mind, it has always come out on topMissy's rational mind: although it keeps getting beat out by the ED mind, it has held out and keeps coming back for more...so either it's a glutton for punishment, or it has amazing stamina along with high spirits....i hate to say it, but i think im placing my cash on the ED mind....he seems to be where the money's at these days.......
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missy!what am i to do with yu?think about it this way...has yuu say...iff yuu reach 115 yuu\'ll start eating?and do yuu really wanna to that?so that one reason to keep this weight...i know it sounds bad but still....i really think yuur rational mind can win...its smart and sees the truth.
I place mone on Your rational mind....and I am poor so you better win! I know you can beat it!! You want to...you need to..you have so much to look forward to....and you know what..I believe in you....Jenny
I really, really wish I could say your rational mind will win this fight, but the way things have been going for you lately I am going to say your ED mind is going to win this time. But I hope in the very near future your rational mind will win. I know you got it in you and I know you know just what you have to do. You just have to do it. But, yeah, I know, easier said then done.
I like a safe bet- I\'ll put my money 50/50. Secretly hope rational mind wins.
hope your tummy is feeling better! hugs!
this disease is a horrible battle, i know that first hand. but i also know it can be beat and i know you want to beat it. i don\'t beleive in bets i believe in people and i believe in you. fight, fight with all you have and you will rise above and win. i have faith in you.
if i was betting on myself, i say ED all the way, but that\'s such a fucked up way of thinking, only cuz i know it\'s true. i havent proven myself other wise the past five years.
I bet all my cards on Ed. Ed and your \"rational mind\" are in bed together. A rational mind doesn\'t think along the lines of when an anorexic will lose more weight. When you get in touch with your true rational mind then all my money goes there. XOXOXO
I don\'t want to bet, i just want you to be happy!!!
all bets on your rational mind for when it makes an appearance.i know you think its useless at the moment but it really is your \' santa\'s little helper\' - heres why:
e.d mind is a hopeless little bitch : starts of promising and letting you think your goiong to win out and then falls back into the shaddows when its devestated you terribly. and then who else is left to pick up the peices but your rational mind. (a.k.a = old faithful/santas little helper). your e.d thoughts can banish it from the race track but really - the fact that your rational mind is still questioning your e.d thoughts (particularly considering they are as strong as they are_) means that is it is unquestionably the most invaluable human faculty you have. its not like weight - you cant get rid of it and that is why the hope of recovery is something you always hold on too.
hope your feeling better and your belly\'s de-bloated a bit
lot sof love
ninny
xxx