still sick, but getting better...not strep, i think it was laringitis (haha i think i so spelled that wrong!)...my voice is still bad, but i am at least understandable now....i didnt get sent home from work today...which is good...ive asked to pick up some extra hrs on friday so that i can get my usual paycheck since i missed yesterday....thank god i was blessed with a good immune system...i rarely get sick (minus this ongoing ED), and when i do...it's usually short livedi ate 415 calories yesterday....ED won....today im goin back up to 475...what a rebel i am.....haha right?today at work, i was trying to tighten my belt so that my pants (which seem to be getting bigger every time i put them on...dumb things) wouldnt fall down anymore....and i had my shirt a little bit up so that i could see my belt and mrs karen said "u know, normally i wouldnt say anything, but u need to gain some weight...u yell at me for not eating much, but i bet that u eat even less!" my mind starts racing about y this could be....well i know y it is, but i was thinking of what i could tell her.....and then shes like" u must move around more than u eat.....i bet u didnt have one of  those brownie cupcakes that u brought in did u?" (i baked brownie cupcakes for the teachers for halloween)....and well my mom took one this morning...so there were only 11 instead of 12......so i lied and said that i did take one....but then i thought that i had better make it a more believeable lie and said that i only managed 1/2 of it since i was so sick........(and as for mrs karen, she is so triggering for me...she is always talking about how slow her metabolism is and how she only eats 1/2 a sandwich everyday at lunch, and then only picks at her dinner.....and well i bet she eats more than she lets on...cuz she is chubby...and nobody's metabolism is THAT fucked up)i just took a quiz in microeconomics (what was the teacher thinkin giving a quiz on halloween....jerk)...and i so failed it...i know i did.......im such a failure....i wish that someone would just beat the shit out of me for being so dumbi havent weighed myself in awhile....i wonder if im at 115 yet....i like playing dumb with my weight...if i dont know it, then i dont have to do anything about it........ok dont anybody judge me for this but......since my parents arent buying me my safe foods anymore, i have thought of a way to get around this...i simpley return the food they did buy me, then take the money and buy what i want.....like they bought me 4% cottage cheese when i asked them to get me fat free (i was forced to ask for something such as cottage cheese...as i was not consuming it b4...and they want me to have more variety)...they said ok...then came home with 4% claiming that the store was out of fat free (they wouldnt let me go to the store with them...guess im kind of a stressor) i looked at the 4% cottage cheese and said "im not eating this!!!!" which i shouldnt have done...i should have just shut up and put it in the fridge....but my dad got mad and said "SHUT UR MOUTH!".......well guess what dad? i picked the garbage the other day, found the receipt, and returned ur nasty old cottage cheese!! and i kept the money to buy some food that i would eat....so put that in ur grocery cause and smoke it!