JUST WHO THE FUCK DO THEY THINK THEY ARE? HUH?my parents left to do the grocery shopping a little while ago...but not b4 they informed me that they scoured the list that i wrote for them and told me that they are refusing to buy most of it for me....they said that i need more variety and that i cannot just eat those foods....so now im not allowed most of my safe foods........well FUCK THEM! 3 can play at this game meant for 1!........they can tell me what im not allowed to get since they pay for the groceries....but they cannot tell me what i have to eat.....a huge part of me is telling me to eat even less now just to show them that they cannot influence me and MAKE me get better.....please dont anyone tell me how childish this is....i know already........im so pissed off right now....fuck them.....and fuck them for telling me that i look like shit....im skinny yes, but im still their daughter....and they should tell me that they love me...not that i look like shit.........fuck them.....fuck me......fuck ED
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I am sorry about your parents that is really tough, Keep on venting that is a good way to get it out! Hang in there!
I think it is pretty messed up that your parents don\'t buy your safe food. May be you could compromise. They buy your safe food and you try a new food once a week. I\'m only eating my safe foods which are so limited but I know it\'s not the right way. It\'s just too hard to understand for others why we eat that way. Especially if one of your safe foods is high in cals: like one of mine is chocolate.
But don\'t go to where you eat nothing. That wouldn\'t be a payback, only another worry for them and a setback for you. Hope you can calm down a bit before they get home. Good luck!
Baby, talk to them. Starving yourself even more isn\'t punishing them, it\'s punishing yourself. And your body is already going through so much. Tell them what you need from them, to love you and help you through this. You already berate yourself so much, you don\'t need it from them. Write them a letter or something. Get your feelings out there. You can do it. They need to hear you so they can know how to help you.
I agree with wildwings. It\'s not good for you to starve youself because you\'re angry. I agree with you about your parents\' remark about how you look. Parents are supposed to be supportive, and love unconditionally. I realize some parents have a hard time with one or both of these, but when you sign on to be someone\'s Mom or Dad, not only is it for life, but it\'s for the child\'s life,too. I pray for you daily to have the guidance and strenght to deal with not only your ED, but with any and all people that don\'t understand or try to. I\'m also praying for your parents to get the understanding and learn the lessons needed to encourage you and support you.
As you know, I\'m here if you want to talk, or vent or whatever you need to do to let go of the negativity in you. God bless you and I hope your week goes well for you. BIG,BIG HUGS~Steph
Fuck Ed XO
mmmm.thats hard.and horrible that yuur parents wont let yuu buy they food yuu will eat.thats just stupid.but yuu need to prove to them that yuu can beat this...i know the feeling that yuu have...i do that kinda thing all the time...but has the saying goes \'yuu cut of yuur nose to spite yuur face\'....its \'worth\' it now but later its just gunna cause more pain.
I\'m so glad I don\'t live with my parents. Whenever my dad comes over he looks through my cabinets and fridge and tells me I have to stop buying fat free and low fat foods. I\'m just like ok whatever. I think your parents should at least be happy that you are eating something. Denying you of your safe foods is not going to fix the problem. If anything it sounds like it is just going to make it worse.
hugs.
It is insanely difficult to live with parents when you have an ED; they don\'t understand, nor will they ever know what to say.
By starving yourself, or giving into your ED, you are punishing yourself and doing nothing but securing more difficulties in your parents\' minds. After years of this sort of behaviour, I\'ve realised that doing this doesn\'t do anything to my parents, nothing is going to change the past, and the only way I can \"get back\" at my parents is by getting better and actually living.
Despite what you think of your parents now, if you continue with this, you will eventually be completely dependant on them- financially and emotionally. You are a strong and independant woman, so I know this would be a mortifying experience for you.
If you ever wanna talk, I\'m here, you know that. /hugs Take care of yourself, and try to encourage more rational thoughts- though I know that\'s difficult.
I\'m sorry your parents are blind. **BIG HUGS**