i cannot believe how many people read my journal...i will never get over this...to me, i am not worth the time...but for some reason, u guys think differently...i love u guysslept in my sister's room last night with her and the cat...she has this big heater in her room so it was nice and toasty...hence my wanting to sleep in there...also, my sister is pretty much the only member of my family who treats me as missy and not as an anorexic...i love her...bless her soulwell im back to ordering this stuff offline that my parents know that i shouldnt be ordering....its an expensive diet food...thats all im gonna say about it....its not laxatives or diet pills or anything dangerous...its just that in the past 2 yrs, i have spent about $2500 on this stuff....but it is o so good....and i think im gonna be placing another order soon....just know that when my order was delivered last night, my parents looked at the return address and saw where it was coming from and werent too happy....my mom was like "how quickly u have fallen back down"....well im just glad that they gave it to me....i was half expecting that if i wasnt home when it was delivered, then they would throw it out behind my back....guess not =)i was woken up by my dad saying "you who" in a silly girl voice...its been awhile since he has joked around with me....i didnt know how to react...but it made me feel goodi went shopping with my sister and her bf shawn....went to one of my fav malls....ah heaven!!!!.....today is my bf jame's bday....his 21st....he told me that alot of people want to do something with him today...so i told him not to try and come out here to hang wiht me...cuz i told him that i dont wanna help add to the feeling that hes being pulled in a million directions....but the truth is, i didnt wanna have to work him into my schedule....i didnt buy him a bday gift cuz i think its too early in our relationship to be buying gifts for each other...xmas will be a different story....i also didnt wanna be forced to have to think of something special to do with him b/c its his bday...too much pressure on me...if that makes any sense...well, tonight i am going to bingo where i dont have to worry about entertaining anyone but myself.....thats what the weekend is supposed to be like!
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I understand what you are saying about your boyfriend...I was kinda in the same boat but little different. Anyway I just hope you are doing ok, and that you are safe!
You are so worth reading. We are all in this together (can you say too much High School Musical with the kid). I would not expect your support if I wasn\'t able or ready to give you mine (even if you do not want it). Miss-I just want you to think about where you were last year, the treatment and everything else. You wrote about the place you stayed and how much the women there were loving and giving. You deserve that and you need to find a way to accept that. You are letting ED get the better of you. You are stronger than he is. You need to be focused on school and your job and a future that includes a husband and kids.
Well Joanne just said it all. You are really loved. Have fun at bingo! XOXO
Your 20 kiddo, you have your whole life ahead of you, if you choose to have it. But the only person who can make that happen is you and now\'s the time. The longer you keep putting it off, the more of a mindset you will get. ED needs to go. You need to break up with him. You\'ve given him time, energy, years of your life, and MONEY. My advice, dont buy the diet food, save the money, and put it in a high compound interest ROTH IRA account. Save for the long life you deserve and make goals for things you want to do, and places you want to see. Devote yourself to living, not dying for ED. Alright enough with the financial lecture, ;) I just want the best for you and want you to have fun with life! Much love,
Danielle
Missy, I care very much for all my friends!! I hope you have a good time at bingo and WIN BIG!!!! Have a wonderful Sunday!! Much,much love and hugs,Steph
I love ya too!!! Hope you have a great sunday!!!
yuu are veryveryvery much worth reading.i love yuu!
well i gusse diet it food is better than no food... :]
try and eat all of it...yuu can do this hun!