*****WARNING....NUMBERS TO FOLLOW*****im 116.5 after a full day of coffee, water, and diet pop.....hmmm....well im not counting myself as 115 til i see that number...im stubborn like thatmy bff tracy applied to where i work, and she had an interview today....hope she gets the job....would be nice to have my best friend there with me...only problem is...she goes to school in the mornings and works in the afternoon/evenings.....while i work in the morning and go to school in the evening....but we'd have every weekend off together, and we might work at the same time during the summertime....and well her shifts and my shifts would overlap for like an hour or so...so an hr is better than nothing!....and she'd also get to quit that nasty dietary job at the nursing home....i worked there for 3 days and quit b/c it was SOOO nasty....am i snobby? yes....but i dont care....im not putting my hands in a sink that has food floating in it in order to wash the dishes....no thank u....and im also not working in a kitchen with cockroaches crawling around....and im not working with people who play with them....not my scene, or my crowd thank u very muchtoday i have been triggered to no end....first, at work, miss karen was talking about how she cannot eat very much or else she will get F A T....she tells me that she can only have 1/2 a sandwich, a light yogurt and water at lunch time or else, she will gain weight.....then she told me that her IBS is acting up so she cannot eat anymore today....she ate her 1/2 a sandwich i guess and then said she will not consume anything else for the rest of the night...i was like "well wont u get hungry?" and she was like "ill just drink water".........ED ED ED?????? haha i doubt it...she's fat, and eats crackers/ candy throughout the day....i just hate hearing her talk about how little she eats....and the FAT she is afraid of clinging to her...and how she would like to lose weight....and how im so lucky to be thin....and how healthy i am....HAHA tell that one to my doctor miss karen! yea the doctor who refuses to see me as a patient anymore because he's sick of my sickliness!!!!!!then miss sherry at my work was like (while eating mac and cheese, grapefruit, and yogurt) "miss melissa how do u stay so thin?" i wanted to respond with "I HAVE A DEADLY ED CALLED ANOREXIA WHICH HAS ALMOST KILLED ME ALREADY AND IS IN THE PROCESS OF TRYING A REPEAT PERFORMANCE...IT KEEPS ME ON A STRICT REGIMEN OF ABOUT 500 CALORIES A DAY....U KNOW THE AMOUNT THAT IS PROBABLY IN THAT FAT AND CHEESE UR CONSUMING......." but instead i said "im 20 that's probably y....just wait 30 yrs".......to which she said "well u look good" (thank god i was wearing an oversized hoodie....im sure if she counted my ribs, she wouldnt be thinking that i looked so good)