i think that we as people have this 6th sense if u will....kind of like a alarm system that let's us know whatsup b4 it happens...u know kind of like how a woman who's pregnant and doesn't know it yet will start noticing other moms and their babies, and start fauning over itty bitty baby clothes......well i'm a little worried about what i'm seeing/hearing in my life at the moment....alot of people around me are talking about heart attacks....my co worker today was telling me about how her father died at 43 unexpectedly of a heart attack, Cass on here was telling me about how her doctor says it's likely that she will have another stroke or heart attack that will take her life, and every night while im waiting for sleep, i can feel my heart pounding....and i get scared...i don't think i give it enough fuel to keep going like that....i get afraid to go to sleep...what if i don't wake up? what if that's all she wrote for me? when death takes u, there are no do overs.....there are no take backs....it's final...fini...finit!got a moment alone with my boss today and i asked her how i was doing, and if there was anything i could be doing better...she said that from what she's seen and heard, that i am doing just fine and that if she sees otherwise, she will tell me....guess im just a little worried since she fired this other girl just last week...my boss isn't the most friendly woman...which is kind of weird cuz she runs a preschool/day care....i have summed this all up to...she is kind of like the cat woman in a way...not friendly with people, but warm hearted towards cats....except in this case, the cats are kids
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i know the feeling of something bad coming...and i hope sososo much that yuu dont have that happene to yuu!
I\'m always afraid that I am going to go to sleep and never wake up. I often lay in bed listening to my heart beating really fast.
Your boss sounds alot like the boss I had when I worked in daycare. She was not the least bit friendly, but yet she was a director of a day care. She was very religious and she would always tell me I needed to go home and pray for myself. I was just like I think I\'m going to go home and pray for you b****h.
I so understand what you are saying about something bad going to happen. How is your job going? I hope you are still liking it...and I know how challenging it can be. And how dead tired you can feel. Have a good week!
is this your wake up call to treatment?? maybe. maybe not. death is always in the back of all of our ED minds...take care.
Arghh scary! Sorry i have never had the thought of death because of what i used to be like so sorry i can\'t really empathize except that i hope you are trying to look after yourself.
That is great feedback from your boss, keep up the good work
sounds like your boss has issues. i am sure you are doing a great job. maybe you should go to the doctor for a complete work up. i am worried about you. take care please. you will be in my prayers.