omg....i am failing college so bad!! i hate this....i cannot concentrate...and i cannot tell anyone in my life about my stress over this cuz they will just be snotty about it because it's all my ED's fault....i got a 37% on my accounting test....who does that?!?!?!?!? and the one day i overslept and missed my psych class, there was a pop quiz....fucking eh!!!... my god......i know im not stupid....i just cannot study like this....and i cant give my ED up at this moment....i cannot take a semester off...cuz the deal with my sister and i still living at home is that it's ok as long as we r still in school.......i don't have anywhere else to go!!! and i cannot go to treatment...so don't anyone suggest this....if i did go...i'd gain the weight...and just lose it again as soon as i got back out....and doing this is even more wearing on me then just staying skinny is....i feel kind of like i am a piece of plastic that keeps getting bent in opposite directions....healthy weight, underweight, healthy weight, underweight.....and we all know what happens when a piece of plastic gets bent too many times in opposite directions......it snaps
Replies
I am sorry you are feeling so torn by all these things! I am also sorry that you don\'t want to get better right now because it seems as though that would help a great deal with your life. I hope you don\'t snap because that would mean you\'ll either die or be forced in treatment, which is somewhere I know you don\'t want to go. Hang in there!!
Sounds like EXACTLY what happened to be before I was forced to withdraw. You\'re right- people with EDs are the best and brightest in the country, but the only way you\'re going to get your grades and concentration back is by eating properly- you know that.
You said not to urge you into treatment, and I think you know why you asked us not to- because it is the only option left if you want to raise your grades... :(
boo...i hate parents. even if ED wasn\'t involved, you\'re not into school right now and that\'s Ok! i think or so i\'ve decided for now...hang in there.
missy, i\'m gunna be honest with yuu..i dont think yuur ed is directily affecting yuur grades...yur stres is..yu are really a smart girl and yuu can totally do college...yuu need to find a shrink to talk to cause school is just making the stress worse...i really think this would help yuu feel better.
Hey kiddo, I took Accounting last semester and am taking financial planning right now, if you need help ask me Im pretty sure I can help some. I took psychology too, and my boyfriend has a degree in psychology so ask away if you need help understanding something. I come on here everyday, you may think I dont but I do to read everyone\'s journals and answer any questions so again ask away...
Danielle
ive sort of got one foot in that boat myself at the moment and i dont really know what to suggest but i can tell you that the more you start doing - the easier it is to stop thinking about e.d and start concentrating on study.
its just breaking the e.d thoughts in enough to make a start in the first place
dont know how you can do that but if you can get to there your set
Again I have tears in my eyes... I don\'t want you to... die.. to snap.... Can\'t you just try and do something different? Can\'t you just fake the want to succeed? Maybe you\'ll start believing it... I know I do this at times, but it\'s good because it\'s positive..... Make yourself a new goal like getting a passing mark on the next test or something..... I would be really sad if you just give up, and for what, this pain and suffering you are going through? Anyways, I love you. Have a good positive day.
Are you eating breakfast? I know it\'s me again and my stupid breakfast advice, but it\'s impossible to concentrate with no food. XOXOXO