somebody please tell me...when did fat become a valid feeling¿?¿? i know im not fat...but i feel fat....like i feel anxiety coming on because i think that i am in the midst of gaining weight...i know that this isnt true..but it is a fear of mine....please dont anybody think that i look in the mirror and see a 2 ton tussy....cuz i dont...i know im a stick chick, a skinny minny, a bean pole if u will.......but im always afraid that even by eating what i always do and not changing anything that i wont keep getting what i always get...i feel that my body is just gonna be like "fuck this, lets expand!"........god my mind is one messed up storage unit!so today i went to work...my boss still hasnt inquired about the bottom of the sheet...so im thinking that nothing will be said...phew!.....then after work i came home and slept for 4 hrs.....then i went to Panera Bread...its this little cafe out here...i dont go there to eat though...i go there cuz they have a helpie selfie coffee bar....with lots of coffee, splenda, and equal to help urself to! and i dont have to pay cuz i keep my cup that i bought one time that i was there...and hide it in my purse...then i go in and sit down and just take the cup out and voila....free coffee for me!....and i cant help myself from filling my purse up with their sweeteners b4 i leave....i usually sit in the cafe for an hour or so drinking coffee and reading a book....its divine...but i always feel so fat when i leave cuz coffee fills me up...so maybe thats y i am feeling so fat tonight.......well we have gotten wireless internet through satellite! its so much faster than dial up.....haha now i might come on here even more than i do now...if that is even possible!