**** WARNING RAMPANT VULGARITY THROUGHOUT****i am SO PISSED right now.....my stupid ass ex dr had agreed to do my TB (tuberculosis shot to make sure that i dont have TB so that i can work at the preschool) and today was the day for my arm to get checked...so it was checked....but then the stupid miserable fuck filled out the top portion of the clearance sheet, but then refused to fill out the bottom part of it...the bottom part stated that i have no communicable diseases that can be passed on to children and that i am fit to be working with kids......apparently he doesnt think with my condition that i am fit to work with kids.......i swear, this man stays up late at night thinking of how he can make my life more difficult than it already is....my anorexic has NEVER wrecked my job performance, nor will it ever....and im positive that i wont pass my anorexia on to the children!!! god mother fucking damnit! how the fuck am i supposed to explain to my boss y the bottom portion isnt filled out? i dont wanna have to fucking tell her that i have an ED! thats my own personal information!!! GOD FUCKING DAMN IT ALL!!! i already have the task of trying to find a new doctor who will accept me as a new patient....and now i have this whole mess.......im so FUCKING LOST! i HATE my ex doctor! hes such a mother fucking douche bag!!!!!today is also an anniversery in a way...it was october 5th of last yr (exactly one yr ago today) that i entered the inpatient hospital...i was 99 lbs and was put in a hospital gown, stripped of all of my possessions, and left by my parents.....i was fed liquid nutrition for 3 days, was on complete bed rest for 3 days in which i wasnt allowed tv, phone, or visitors......i did alot of crying this time last yr.....i am thankful to be out in the world at this moment....remembering this experience keeps me grateful for what i have....so today i will remember
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blah... I\'m sorry about the papers! That\'s a dumb thing to not do for you.... but at least he didn\'t put you had anorexia and then you handed in the papers not knowing it... that would have made for a bogus awkward situation! I hope something works out soon. Take care.
I am grateful from the bottom of my soul that you are no longer in the hospital. But I worry that you will soon be back there, with tears and pain in your eyes. I don\'t wish that for anyone- let alone you!
My advice is to seek out your university doc if you can, or another walk-in clinic to get the clearance sheet signed. There is a point your doctor is making- that you are sick, and you do need help. He is doing what he thinks is best, even if that really fucks shit up for you. If this plan doesn\'t work, try talking to someone at the nursery that will understand. I had to tell my boss why I was going on medical leave to the hospital, and it was very embarassing, but it seemed like when I said it, everything fell into place like a puzzle. She was really understanding, and just wished the best for me. Then again, you aren\'t leaving, so I know this is such a tough situation.
I love you, and I hope everything works out!!!
oh wow.
thats is so gddamn stupid!a child wont be able to understand an ED if yuu hit them over the head with it.i\'m sorry that yuur ex doctor did this.like lapetitemoi said, go to a walk in clinic.maybe that will work.or maybe explain it to yuur boss will work better.which ever yuu think will go better.
i\'m sososo sorry about the whole hospital thing hun.i really hope it did do something good for yuu and [i\'m really trying not to preach] yuu cee that yuu dont wanna have to do that again..and i dont think yuu will.cause i really do think yuu can beat this motherfucker. :]
I hate your doctor, too. I mean, really, if he wants to help you, he should be helping you to live a \"normal\" life and be part of society...
That is so rude! I would be furious too. Hope you find a better one. Hugs
Hey, sorry you don\'t even know me but i was drawn to your profile by the cursing!!! I can think of some other words for your doctor, but god what a prick! I was having the same thought about having to tell my work about my ED too as i am also a school teacher, and i was imagining them thinking that i am mental or something - when my ED doesn\'t affect my teaching (unless when i am preparing for stuff and i instead go off on a huge binge or I am tired and grumpy at school - but who isn\'t sometimes - everyone has their vice for stress and ours is just food. It\'s none of your school\'s business. I agree with the others trying to get to you go to another doctor. Good luck!
Doctors suck, there are a few out there who are still kind and caring though. Big hugs to you!!
I am SO sorry that your doc doesn\'t think that you are fit to work with kids! It\'s not your fault you have an ED. You didn\'t choose it. Good luck finding a NEW doc!
I lost a job working with children due to Anorexia a long time ago...I was angry at the time and blamed it on the woman who fired me, but she was legitimately concerned about the safety of the kids. I was supposed to be teaching rock climbing and repelling, and I didn\'t weigh enough to Belay the 11 and 12 year old boys...I\'m not sure what your responsibilities would be with these kids, or why your dr. didn\'t warn you ahead of time about his thoughts on your fittness to work with them (that was a nasty surprise), but take this as a sign that you have to take better care of yourself if you want to live a normal and productive life...please, I know I sound like a broken record, but I am SO worried for you!
I\'m so sorry Missy, I know you must be so frusterated right now. But just think of this as one more reason to kick ED to the curb. I think by working with the kids you can see that there are other things in life that can bring you happiness other than controlling your food/body. And I know it\'s hard when emotions are running high, but take a step back and look at it from the doctor\'s perspective. What if you were holding one of the kids and passed out? I know it\'s kind of worst-case-scenario but just remember that before you can really give your all to someone else, you have to give your all to yourself! I\'ll get off my high horse now, but I just know you\'re such a great person and I want to see you be able to accomplish your awesome goals.
Just glad your having a better year then last year hopefully next year will be better still.