another day at the preschool...lol...being a teacher's assistant is going to prove to be a rewarding job in many ways...i get to see the kids grow, learn, explore, and experience new things that they have never encountered b4....i too am learning...like i learned today that yesterday, while i was changing pull ups, i was putting the fresh ones on the kids backwards......haha oops...but today, while i was pottying them, i think i got it right!we painted pumpkins today...and miss melissa came home with paint in her hair and all over her shirt....=Pi must say though...ED is not left outside while im working...he is busy tabulating the caloric intake of these little adults....like while im pouring the WHOLE milk into their sippy cups, i am peering at the nurtrition info and cringing.....or while they are eating snack, ill tabulate that calories in it....damn how fucked up am i?im doing alright with these early mornings...but im pooped after my shift...i came home today and since my night class was cancelled, i slept from 3-7:30...then i had to do schoolwork and mop the kitchen...no rest for the weary...and i have to get up and do it all over again tomorrowi also have a drs appt tomorrow on top of work and school....u know what though? im not fucking with the scale....no water loading, and no weight belt...i dont care waht the scale says...i dont see my ED dr anymore, and i dont see my therapist anymore (insurance cut me off)...so i only have to answer to my primary dr and he cant do squat about it...im 20...and its my life and my body! so there! (lol wow theres a preschooler retort for ya!)
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glad to hear that the job is going well. sad to hear that ED won\'t leave you alone. i\'m in that crappy boat with you! =(
I know just how you feel about the weight thing. I get that feeling all the time because I know that no one can put me back in treatment. Just keep in mind the things that can happen to your \"life\" and your \"body\".
I\'m happy that you\'ve found a job you love. It sounds cute. :)
Oh man, I wish I had that liberty of \"it\'s my life and my body.\" My parents have threatened to have me committed if I don\'t get treatment. Fucked, eh?
glad to hear your having fun on the job. keep any eye on that sneaky weaky ed though - a few weeks ago i prob would have been doing the same thing. the pull ups thing made me laugh so hard my milk came out my nose. lol
lots of love :)
xxx
Sorry about your insurance. (I seem to say that a lot) Little kids need whole milk but no adults really need it. I can completely understand those Ed thoughts, though. Glad to hear you aren\'t playing weigh-in games. You don\'t need to cheat at solitaire. XOXOXO
ha..lil kiddies seem to get the paint everywhere but the things that they are supposed to be painting.
i know that i cant tell yuu to eat and that what yuur doing is wrong but i just want yuu to know that i reallyreally hope that yuu do start to eat little by little...i really just hope for the best for yuu hun..
you\'ll get used to the routine...and it gets a little bit easier everyday..you sound so awesome....I wish I had the patience to deal with little kids, but my brother ruined that for me..lol