wow! u guys are amazing...i cannot believe how many of u read my journal...i am touched, flattered, and honored...when i first came onto this site, i almost left cuz no one was reading my entries...and i felt left out of this loop of friendships that i had felt had already formed before i came....but i am so glad i stayed...i dont know what id do without u guys!i had a hard day at work...i got yelled at by my boss....long story....i fucked up....but then i did everything i could to fix it...and i did....so all is well again...i almost punished myself through my eating.....but i didnt....well i am but not for that reason.....im not eating much tonight cuz im nervous about my new job that i begin tomorrow at the preschool....at 7:30 am! eek! please everyone pray for me that i have a good first day!! and that i dont fall asleep behind the wheel!!!!!well i went to the movies tonight with dan....my ex bf....it wasnt a date! he called me and well he did apologize and all for hurting me...so we went out as friends...i gave him a hug and that was it....im too smitten with james to be anything more than friends with dan!....and i think men really do want what they cant have...i think dan is so into me and i think thats funny...cuz he CANT have me!!!!