well the cat is out of the bag....i told james....we didnt go to the movies as planned...instead we went bowling with james' bff mike, mike's gf, and mike's cousin....so i was a little miffed and uncertain about my plans to have a heart to heart with my boy.....but he made sure to make time for just him and i....we talked while the rest of the gang went to mighty taco....i opened up to him like i have never done with another bf....and he listened....and he told me that he isnt going anywhere...he is in it for the long haul...i told him things i would never have dreamt of telling someone....like about my ingrained routine with food...about how its not about weight/food...but yet it is surrounded around weight/food....about how i have osteopenia...about how i havent had a period in 3 yrs....how i had an NG tube while i was in the hospital last year....and alot of other personal things....he told me that he thinks i am so very brave...i almost cried when i saw that he wasnt gonna run away because he heard the words eating disorder.....actually he told me that he had suspected when him tracy and i went to friendlys and i ordered dry fruit loops and just picked at them (and that for me was hard to eat a few fruit loops) and he said that there were other signs as well....guess anorexia isnt the easiest thing to hide lolsomething hilarious happened today that made me feel as though i was walking on air! i went to tim hortons b4 goin to the bowling alley to meet james....and i turned around and this guy was totally checking me out...and then he waved and was like "hi melissa remember me?"....and then bam i recognized that it was one of my asshole exes named dan!....i went over and talked to him...and was rather cold to him...i told him that i had planned on running him over the next time i saw him...and that he had alot of balls to say hi to me and not hide....he said that he was sorry if he had hurt me....and i said that that was all in the past...and that we could be friends if he wanted....and i gave him my number and told him that if he wanted to be friends then he could call me...then i said that i doubted that he would call because guys never wanna be just friends.....he called me 2 hrs later! LMAO men always want what they cant have! and i have this guy eating out of my hand! im totally with james and would never dump him for dan! but god it feels nice to have an ex he threw me out like yesterdays garbage to be pineing for me!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH....and im sorry but dan is still cute....damn.....well score 2 for missy, score 1 for james....and dan 0!