just another day in the life of missy...and sadly included in there is EDwent to work where i dealt with the same dumb customers...u know all of them who each ask when the ice cream stand is closing while standing directly in front of the neon orange sign stating the closing date...or how about the guy who came up and asked to buy a pack of cigarettes? do the words ICE CREAM STAND have the slightest indication that there may be some smokables for sale in the premisis? didnt think so thank u!my dad still isnt really talking to me...ever since my ED...he just puts up with me b/c im his flesh and blood...but other than that tie to me i think that he is so frustrated and fed up that hes washed his hands of the situation....i know he loves me and he wants to fix me...but he cant...and that pisses him off to no enddoes anyone else find themselves tabulating other people caloric intakes? like tonight, my family made calzones for dinner (i didnt partake obviously) and i found myself tabulating the calories...which turned out to be about 800-900 calories per calzone (they were huge and they each ate all of theirs)...is this a normal caloric intake for a meal? idk...who am i to judge what is normal?!?!?i totally went to the police department to get fingerprinted for my day care job....and i totally wish that i had thought to do the whole super troopers meow thing....damn....totally missed that opportunity!went to bingo...and i walked down to tim hortons b4 it started to get a coffee...and i was supposed to get this woman these gift certificates that she asked me to pick up for her...but stupid me...i forgot....so at half time, i jogged back down...and damn...i forgot how good exercise feels....this is bad...i am an ex compulsive exerciser (treatment helped me overcome this symptom thank god)....and im scared i might be falling back into it........
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yeahh..i watch what evryone one eats and sumtimes i cant help tp point out that whatever it is is extremely high in cals...ppl usally look at me like \'who cares?yuu strange..\'..but dont worry yuur not alone on that...i think yuur right about yuur dad..he really does love yuu but je cant understand this part of yuur life and then he just completely blocks yuu out.. =/
oh yes. sounds very familiar. when i was annorexic i did that constantly and i could think about it for hours and be very pleased indeed that i didnt partake. i still sort of do it with other people although roughly and only very occasionally but never with myself because onviously im bulimic so everything just goes down the hatch regardless now.
im so sorry life with your dad is so tough at the moment. its prob. very hard for him to deal with because he\'s not female and event hough i know that men can and do suffer from annorexia i personally just think its tied in with a lot of issues about being female (hope thats not offensive to you or anyone so v. sorry if i put my foot in it there. you never know. one day he might see something or meet someone or learn something that gives him a better insight into the fact that its not a concious choice and you cant control it.
none the less - yes haha. i deal with morons like the guy acking for cigareetes on an almost daily basis, and if i wern\'t at work id love to just point out what a moron they are to someone else but none the less. people are so stupid, sheesH!
hope your doing better with your e.d
try to stay well
and damn i wish you got that super troppers thing in ahhaha, that would have been hilarious!.
lots of love
your in my thoughts.
ninny1
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hey missy i am not anorexic but i often count how many calories people are eating....partly because of my work and partly because of ED. maybe all becasue of ed. hehe. sigh. like something similar happend at work today. someone bought starbucks \"low fat fruit bars\" to share and i said waht a joke those things have about 400 calories each and they scoffed at me. eh. i look at how much people eat...calorie contents ugh its so crazy. i\'m crazy!!!ADMKSDMKSJNFJNSDF ok sorry to rant on this comment hehe
I am always figuring out how much others are eating. Ad thanks to my profession as a RD, it is an occupational hazzard. I know what you mean about family. My brother and I went downhill after Abe. Things have never gotten back on track. He just could not deal with it and did not feel he should have to be partake in any of the treatment. It caused some real hard feelings 20 years ago and things have never been the same. Have tried but with my relapse, things have just gone back to occaisonal calls now and again.
I think maybe anyone who has ever had a \"food thing\" is apt to calculate calories, both their own and others. I remember a few weeks ago talking with a girl who mentioned that she knew how mnay calories an olive has (even I don\'t know that one off the top of my head!) which really shocked me. Maybe we\'re all crazy, ED or not.
TRy not to get back into the over exercising thing- believe me its not worth it!! And Im sure you know from experience. It really is a pity your dad isn\'t better at expressing him self but thats men for you! Hear you on calculating ppls calorie intake- then I feel like I have to compensate for them in a way by eating less myself!!! Stay strong and try and avoid exercise and try to eat :)
I totally used to calculate other\'s cal. intake. I wanted to make sure that I was always eating a lot LESS then they were. I still do it occasionally, just like I still glare at the cute skinny girls walking around town. I actually got really angry yesterday because I met this other girl who\'s five mos. pg, and still skinny as a rail...and I\'m supposed to be better...Stupid ED!
I know it\'s been a long stressful hurtful situation with your Dad. Sorry that you\'re just going to have to love him, forgive him, and accept him for who he is. Doesn\'t look like you have another choice. Congratulations on your new job. Don\'t count the calories of the animal crackers and macaroni and cheese. Ha! XOXOXOXO