when i woke up this morning i had alot on my plate.....i had to1) go to my old high school to have my high school transcripts sent to my college cuz for some reason my college went and lost them2) go to the bank and deposit some money and have some funds transferred from my savings over to my checking account because my school decided that it couldnt cover all of my schooling through loans...so i was left having to cover the rest of it out of my own pocket (about $1000) lucky me right?3) return some books to the library4) do my accounting homework5) take a test in my psychology class6) take a quiz in my microeconomics classand i got it all done! whew....i was totally craving an iced coffee today...so i drove further than i had to to get to tim hortons for one...but they were out...grrr...so i then drove to dunkin donuts (the one that has the slowest service of all of the dunkin donuts in the world!)...waited like 20 min for them to wait on 2 other people...and finally got my large iced coffee with no cream or sugar (just some splenda that i put in myself cuz my paranoid ED mind tells me that if someone else does it then they WILL put in real sugar and not splenda like i requested).....so i drank that and then i had to use this bathroom in the library like 3 times within a 2 hr time frame.....dang...with all the liquids i drink (diet coke, water, coffee, diet green tea) i am like a pee machine!....when they say that coffee is a diuretic they arent kidding! lol o well...wont cause me to stop drinking it!right now i am REALLY jittery....i havent eaten all day...which isnt different than any other day....but today, my hands are shaking and i feel higher than a kite! i feel virtuous and powerful...like i could run a marathon!!!!!!! i have energy to power 10 people! this is the feeling that ED gives me that keeps me loyal to it.....i LOVE this feeling........which doesnt make recovery look very appealing at the moment