whatever genius came up with "people with EDs use sleep as an escape/coping mechanism" was obviously on fucking crack!....i can't even get away from my ED while im sleeping! i have dreams where i feel guilty about eating gummy bears, or pizza, or french fries/onion rings......in my dreams, i get the same scared and panicked feelings when faced with food that i get in real life....god this disease is really fucked up!
my boss called me this morning and told me that i didnt have to come in cuz it was like 50 degrees out so she figured that no one would come to an ice cream stand...so i went back to bed til 3 
....lol i slept for 12 hrs, but not a full peaceful 12 hrs...those 12 hrs were chock full of ED moments, and at the end of them, i got to wake up for 12 more hours of ED moments...when do i get a break?...perhaps when i break me off a piece of that kit kat bar?
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you are right, who ever said sleep gets you away from ed was on crack. i understand every thing you are saying. my problem is my ed won\'t let me sleep. i have to be continuously moving to burn any calories i dared eat during the day. when i do finally sleep it is filled with ed thoughts and is a very restless sleep. it does suck. i truely hope you can find the answer to escape ed and then let me know. i feel for you i truely do. good luck my friend and take care.
Sorry it\'s even getting you in your sleep! I know how it is to have your sleep interupted with stuff. Happens to me all the time. THinking of you!
Cordi
Woooow, you work at an ice cream shop!? Crazy. Anyway, I totally feel you on the food dreams- they suck ass. I think it\'s true that people with EDs sleep to escape though. I take massive amounts of sleeping pills just to forget things. Bah.
God, the one thing I used to have was sleep. I could sleep whenever, wherever. My ED has taken that away from me as well. Now I lay awake for hours before falling asleep. I hate it and totally agree. Even when the depression is bad, I still just lay there. Can\'t get up, can\'t fall asleep. You\'re right, it\'s fucked up.
i used to have night mares of the amount i eat right now..i haven\'t dreamt in a while..i\'m afraid what my new dreams are like...ed is in our heads...if we can get over the mind thing we can get over the physical part..i think...
i have nitemares time to time like tht too not nice!
I had a random ED dream the other night about having a feeding tube forced up my nose. It was scary as heck. I\'ve never even had a feeding tube... and there is no way I would need one now! I used to have nightmares about food all the time though, so I totally know how you feel. I think your dreams really go along with what\'s on your subconscious and/or conscious mind during the day. With that being said, I\'m kind of worried about the fact that I had a dream the other night with a bunch of beads in the shape of penises hanging from the ceiling... lol
yeahh.i have those kinda dreams to.i had one where someone told me i weighed 130lbs and i started screaming...but i do know tht some ppl use sleeping pills so that they can sleep for a loonng time and not get up and eat.
That\'s awesome that you didn\'t have to go to work...I wish they would call and tell me that...lol! I know what you mean about ED bothering you at night. Last night, I dreamed that some lady told me that I might want to consider wearing shorts and a big t-shirt over by bathing suit at the beach..I was so offended.
OMG I get those dreams to, only I call them nightmares. I dream that I am eating fatting foods. I also dream that I am on the scale and I\'ve gain tons of weight. I am so relieved when I wake up and realize it is all just a bad dream.