was off work today...didnt do too much.....went to my aunts for her bday....my mom said that i should have a tiny piece of cake....then she said ok a bite....and then she sat down next to me and helped me through a bite of frosting...it was a tiny bite...but i did it and i was proud....i feel so dirty admitting these things on this site....like somehow everyone else is suddenly more virtuous then me........
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I went out and picked out my own bithday cake on Sat. It took me forever to even get the nerve to go and pick out a cake because I really didn\'t want one. But I did it and you know what I\'m going to eat it to because it\'ll be my birthday and I can do what I want to.
hun its greatt yuu had the cake.has tiny has it was.
i know the dirrty feeling but its good to get it out.
my god missy no ur fine!!!!!!!! Thats good ur mum sounds v supportive!
No...in fact you\'re the one who is virtuous b/c you had some icing. That is one tiny bite toward recovery. I\'m proud!
You are strong! Giving in and starving and punishing ourselves is not a virtue by any means. I know how you feel though. But so proud with you. Every little victory that you make for yourself is a wonderful step forward. Oh- you should adopt one of the kittens! I found my little girl under a bridge and she has been a great addition to my family !!
I\'m proud of you for eating a bit of frosting. It sounds like you have a great mom. My mom would have just been like \"eat the damn cake already.\" Then I would have gotten a lecture.
wow. you have no idea how much i understand. i hate admitting that i eat. i do eat, and i eat a lot. i hate admitting that my moms scale was off and (shudder) i am still in the triple digits. it makes me want to throw up. i feel like everyone else is SO MUCH BETTER than i am. i\'m a weak, needy, greedy person.
so yeah, i understand.
good for you for being willing to try.
You are lucky to have a supportive mom. I just took a painkiller for my bladder infection and it made me so nauseous. My husband talked me through eating an entire plate of chinese food. And right up it all came. He was holding my hair behind my back while I was puking my guts out. Then he said \"Oops, sorry\" I feel so stupid for letting him control me like that. Makes me feel like a loser. If a little frosting is all you can do, than you should be proud you did it. XOXOXOXOXO
yey! you! You should be very proud!xx