O FUCK A DUCK! i have lost 2 lbs.....i am now 6ft tall and 128 lbs...shit shit shit.....well i can now wear my size 1/2 pants again.....so i guess thats something positive...but i dont wanna do the extra eating it takes to keep my weight up....i just dont want the food in me...even after discovering that i lost this weight, i still allowed myself to go 20 hrs without food.....y must this be such a conundrum?!?!?!i went out on matt's boat today with him...he let me drive!......matt is the guy who i accidentally kissed back a few months ago...ok nobody ask me how u accidentally kiss someone...but it can be done...cuz i did it......but after that incident i told him taht i wasnt interested in him like that and that i just wanted to be friends...and now we r...but he still likes me......erg!tomorrow is poker night at my house....charlie and tracy are both coming lol...charlie so had an away message up on his sn last night that said there is only one girl who can make me happy and she doesnt even know it......i have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that i am taht girl.....not sure how i feel about thattonight my BFF tracy told me that her life would be crap without me...that made me smile...she loves me and thinks that i am fun and worthwhile....and i feel the same about her...i think taht her and i will still be friends wehn we r old and gray...i told her about my dwindling weight...and she told me that she doesnt want me to have to go back to rochester...i love her...she supports me wihtout pushing me too far...she doesnt sit there and make evil comments about my eating...and she doesnt try to force me to eatmy sister has been annoying the shit out of me 2night....i was online and she pulls a chair up and starts readin everything im writing...this bothers me to no end...and she knows it cuz it bothers her too.....then she gets up and starts kicking the back of my chair....she loves when i get angry...she loves when anyone gets angry......so i guess she got waht she wanted
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Hope you win at poker!
your sister is mean sometimes....I would have already turned around and thrown my drink bottle on my brother if he did that to me....he he......I know the feeling of losing weight, and having to eat even more......it can suck......but try your best....it\'s only gonna help you (easier said than done..i know)...but your friend supports you too..GOOD LUCK!!
ha =] i unerstand accidental kissing..i\'ve done it too.i sounds likke yuu are just a girll that guys cant get enough of.
i hoppe yuu do well in poker and yuur weight gets to a point yuur happy wit..not other ppl ideas of the right thing..
Umm, if someone did that to me, I would get very angry. That\'s your space and your time. If she is concered then talk to you about it. Say, hey missy, I need a moment with you or whatever.....
I\'ve accidentally kissed many people.. I understand.
How come you would never like Charlie? Just not interested at all?
I love ya... You eat whatever you want to eat.. You have to find out for yourselve your happy medium. You will... I am finding out too... It just takes time, ya know?
I\'ll be on later if you want to talk tonight... Oh yeah, poker night at your house.. I\'ll be on tomorrow too... If I don\'t chat with ya, you have a fun night! I love poker!
HAve a great time at poker!! Sounds like you have really made an impression on these guys! There\'s absolutley no question why! Did you tell your stster how intrusive she can be?
friends that love unconditionally are rare and precious, you hang on to Tracy, she sounds like a gem.
i don\'t want you to have to go back into the hospital (i\'m figuring that\'s what\'s in rochester, am i wrong?!) but i want you to take care of yourself and if it comes to that it comes to that. please let me know if i can do anything, or say anything, or help in anyway girl. you worry me sick (not that you should be concerned about that!) but i\'d hate to lose another friend and you\'re important to me.
Sorry to hear about your weight loss. It\'s nice to have so much attention from guys though...I\'m sure that makes you feel better. Hope you have fun playing poker. Hugs!
Your duck has sloppy seconds. I\'m so pissed that I could scream my head off!! I\'m usually not so vulgar as I am right now. I just spent over an hour trying to get online with these people at the Hyatt Regency in Hong Kong. They charge me a fortune to ... wait a second ...connect with another anorexic.. priceless. Suddenly I\'m not so angry. I have nothing to say, and that is so unlike me. I love you. XOXOXOXO