i love days when im out of the house ALL day...i dont liek being home cuz my dad is an ass to me....it seems like the moment i step in the door and the moment we make eye contact..he starts in on me......and btw...the other day when my mom called him and asked him if he would put in my AC for me (which i told her not to do cuz i dont like asking him to do shit for me)...apparently after he got off the phone he said to my sister "ill put in her AC as soon as she eats a fucking hamburger!".......isnt my dad sweet?my sister woke me up this morning....at 10:45....i went to bed at 3:30 am.....so i wasnt a happy camper...but she suggested that after we go to get my blood drawn (had to because that is the way i can keep myself from seeing the ED dr)...that we go to UB (my college) and map out where all of my classes are........so i started hyperventilating when i got stuck with the blood drawing needle...but my sister held my hand...i love her........then we went to tim hortons and got coffee......yummmmmm........then we went to UB and found all of my classrooms fairly quickly...they all seem to be within a reasonable distance from one another! woo hoo! then we went to the campus bookstore and i bought one of the 4 books that i need...cuz they didnt have the other 3 yet.....so $106 later...i had a psych book and a UB window decal........then we went to a mall......where my sister bought some new clothes...and i bought 2 new belly rings........then we went to the library (lol yes im a nerd....and i love love love to read)......just not college books...lol....im making it a goal to actually open them this semester...i seriously have gone for 2 yrs...and have repeatedly returned college books still in the packaging....lol and i still get As i love it!my sister did something cute.....she finds potential cars for me to buy....cuz mine isnt so reliable....and she calls about them....she is thinking of me is what this shows....she found a 99 saturn....4 dr....moonroof...cd player...power everything...new engine (wiht 50 K on it)....for $4000........its tan though....so i dunno....im not really sure i wanna spend my money on a car right now....it will make me feel as though i have nothing to fall back on...like eating all of ur safefoods....then u r left with nothing.....u feel scared and unprotected....if this makes sense
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hey..as muchh has i know what i\'m gunna say is not gunna happene...forget aboutt yuur dad..he just being an ass.
i hopee everything wit the college goes well for yuu..yuudesever it and dont buy the car if yu really dont need it or want it...it could just be moree trouble...
I just wrote a huge comment, but erased it all because I feel like I\'m full of myself right now. I get like that sometimes and I don\'t like it. So I\'ll just shut up, but I wanted you to know I\'m glad to see your green happy face, and maybe I can comment when I get off my high horse. XOXOXOXO
OK I can\'t take it. This \"let\'s just call Missy\'s Dad an ass\" is bothering me. He\'s an ass and so just forget him?? Bullshit!! That is the worst thing anyone should say to you. OK back on my horse now.
Hey missy! I\'m glad you and your sis sem to be getting along good....hopefully your dad will change some....I know how the money thing goes..i want stuff, but I don\'t want to spend all my money on it.....but the car sounds cool! I hope all goes well...Jenny
Well that is really not nice of your dad but he seems to not understand you ed. It seems like he cares because he\'s bringing it up but he doesn\'t know how to positively support you. Were all human and make mistakes and hurt others with our ignorance. Its hard but its good to see others for what they are not perfect forgive them but it doesn\'t mean its right what they do. I\'m with you, be strong!!!
I feel for you with the whole dad thing... my dad isn\'t exactly the kindest person either. It gives me more motivation to stay well though so I can get the heck out of this house.
And I know how you feel with spending the money on a car too. I have such a hard time buying anything expensive, even if I can afford it! I always feel like I have to have it all saved away \"just in case\". I\'m probably going to live in a cardboard box with like a million dollars one day. lol
You Dad is really concerned and just doesn\'t know how to show it. As a parent he is probably blaming himself and he doesn\'t know how to deal. Hang in there! Congrats on all the school news!! You\'re gonna have a blast! xoxoxoxox
awh, well it sounds like you had a pretty good day! it\'s nice to hear you have such a great sister :] and college, exciting! i\'m sort of starting this fall[just 2 classes because i sitll have a semester of HS left] but i\'m still thrilled. i\'m going to feel all grown up ;P
and i know how you feel about being \"unprotected\" so it does make sense. you need a car though if your college is far away..but you can find a really great car for cheaper than $4000 i\'m sure! so i\'d say keep looking.
Yup makes sense.. I went out and bought my xbox 360 Elite FINALLY! I loveeee video games. I\'m a hardcore gamer, but I was like... Umm.. can I still buy all my organic foods? It\'s so expensive to eat the way I do, but I just said FUCK IT, and I did it. Felt good.... Felt really good....
I didn\'t know you had a belly ring, I couldn\'t see it from the pictures. I have one too! A blue diamond. I\'ve had so many different ones, and i\'ve had this one forever. I never show myself, so I figured why bother getting another one. I hate that negative attitude, so I\'m being more open minded to it now..
Your Dad? You know how I feel on that one... Lame.... He just loves to add fuel to the fire doesn\'t he...
I\'m excited about school too.. I love to learn.. It makes me feel like I have a purpose when i\'m studying for something because I don\'t know what else there really is for me in this world.
Cherrio.