i got away with 10 fake pounds added onto me! thats how much that damn belt i constructed weighed.....and i was "up" 7 pounds since my last appt....which means in reality when the math is done....ive lost 3 lbs......but tricking people sure as hell made this appt more pleasant than it would have been........funny thing though....i ate less today because somehow ED is telling me that i really gained the weight just because the scale said it.....when i KNOW i had weights strapped to my body!!!!! omg sometimes i question my own sanity!guess i can see y my therapist wants me to see my ED dr....cuz i would have never gotten away with what i did today with my ED dr......and im now also nervous about seeing the ED dr...cuz i cant use the weight belt with her....and so when she weighs me i can only use waterloading....so it will look like ive dropped a shitload of weight when she compares the number she gets with the number my dr got today.....ah fuck a duck!well weight issues aside.....i got hit on again today...cant say it doesnt make me smile....lol...but it totally feeds my ED...it tells me that guys like how i look and that they think im pretty so i shouldnt change.....i know if i put on some weight, they would still like me but ED doesnt want to think this.....well i have a date this sunday for african lion safari.....cant wait!played some poker tonight with the family......doubled my money (i came in second place).....guess im good at bluffing and making people think i have something when i really dont.....i think my ED has taught me this trick quite well.......fool people into thinking that u have it all together...when in reality, u r falling apart.....and soon, ur bluffing ur life away
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Yup... I\'m the best lier ever... I understand that.
I think that too.. About my weight... I see the reaction I get with Neil, and how much he thinks i\'m sexy, and I think, is it worth to gain a few pounds back.
I think i\'m to fat anyways..... I want to loss 10 pounds. I will do it.
Anyways... I remember you saying that you were addicted to exercising... Do you still do it? Or does the Ed take over? I find i\'m starting to get into that mode... Just curious for some tips to keep that in control.
Goodluck on the date.
Oh....I hate tricking people(family) cause it always makes me feel guilty...with the docs I could care less...I hate all of em....I Know how you feel...I hope you get the strength to get some real weight on ya...good luck!!
Hope you have fun out your date this weekend. And believe me, you will still look really good if you gain some weight. Hugs!
Tricking the doctor was a bad idea. It\'s just going to get you in more trouble in the end.
do you want to end up in a treatment center? (no hostility intended my dear)
cuz you\'re right. when the ed doc compares this most current weigh in with the weight you show when you see her (i\'m assuming it\'s a she) you\'re gonna be in serious shit.
good job at poker though!! =)
well it sounds like you dont need to be losing 3 pounds dear..