missy has fucked up again everyone!!! just thought id reassure everyone that all is right in the world....because i continue to fuck things up!....i overslept today and woke up right when i was supposed to be at my therapy appt.....i ran out the door and got there just in time for the end of my appt....she gave me 15 min past my appt time.....but id rather not have had this time cuz she used it to tell me that i HAVE to call my ED dr (the woman who i loathe!!! shes a bitch! and she wants to send me away!!!) and make an appt b4 the end of summer.....in my head, i do not want to see this woman ever again and i sure as hell dont wanna call her asking to see her! but my therapist says that this DR knows who to weigh ana patients whereas my primary dr doesnt (he so lets me keep my shoes on! and my keys in my pockets god bless the man!).....i know my weight has gone down....but i am NOT in danger of a stroke or ne thing....and my therapist wont see me if im medically unstable....i know im safe right now....but this doesnt matter to the ED dr...any loss and she wants me bck in program....and im sick of putting my life on hold for my ED...hasnt it taken enough from me? i am 20 yrs old....and i wanna do what other fucking 20 yr olds do!!!!!!with that said.....after therapy i went to the dentist.....and of course i have NO cavities...i love my teeth and im such a dork when it comes to flossing every night.....lol.....but the thing he was concerned about was the enamel on a few of my teeth.....it has worn away really bad.....i was always pretty sure that this is due to poor nutrition and lots of acidic drinks (diet soda, coffee)......but the hygenist thinks that maybe i grind my teeth at night.....cuz a few of my molars in the back are like flat on the top......i dont think i grind them....but how to explain this?!?!?!? i do not purge nor have i ever.....i asked about the coffee and soda....and she said that this isnt a possibility......so maybe im a grinder and i dont know about it.......well on a happy note, i may not have to get my wisdom teeth extracted after all! i am stoked about this....although my ED was already planning on using the surgery to have an excuse not to eat a thing.......but im glad that ED wont get this chance and im even more happy that i wont have to endure the pain! but this is not definite yet...i may still have to get them out....just not within the next yr!!! and ill keep my fingers and toes crossed that i never will have to get them out!
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The enamel on my teeth are worn down. My dentist also told me I grind my teeth at night. If your jaws hurt or are stiff, then it is pretty likely that you are a grinder.
i dont really thinkk yuu fuckk upp that bad.
i hope the teeth thing works out.
i think my teeth are getting pretty jacked up due to diet soda and coffe too.
Everyone screws up sometimes...you are human! Sorry to hear that she wants you to see your ED doctor. that does suck. I\'ll keep you in my prayers!
Number 1 need I remind you yet again that I was only 5 lbs. under weight when I had my stroke. It\'s not always about where you\'re at sometimes it\'s where you\'ve been or what you\'ve done that matter most.
I know I\'m not a teeth grinder but I am a bit clencher. I just started realizing this not this long ago. But my jaw will be so soar sometimes because I have had my jaw clenched for sometimes hours. Maybe that has something to do with your teeth flatness.
Don\'t let ED get in the way of your health and well being any more then he already is. If you need your teeth then do it and do it the right way. I know I had to come up with some interesting ways to eat when I had mine out....There\'s a ong story behind this one and maybe if you\'re lucky I\'ll tell you one of these days. Love ya girl.
Im sorry to hear that she wants u to see the dr. while it probably is a good idea to see a dr that will weigh u the correct way, if this dr really wants u to go back to the program no matter wat then that really does suck. cuz u should be able to feel safe and secure wen going to a dr that they want wat is best for u, not tht they have their minds made up b4 that any loss means a program. there was one dr i used to see at the outpatient treatment center i was going to that i absoultely LOVED, but she left and i dont really like the other ones. one of them is like how u described ur dr-he treats u like ur dying if u lose half a pound! my nutritionist used to help me avoid him in the office and tell me wen the coast was clear and i could leave the room, cuz i hated him so much...if ur dr is anything like him then i really really wish u tons and tons of luck, and i hope shes having a good day wen/if u go see her!
and i also used to grind my teeth at night, and i also clench my jaw like wen im stressed out...contributed to my TMJ, ugh. hope u get that figured out soon! k ill stop rambling!
Well good luck with everything girl. I really hope you don\'t have to have your wisdom teeth out, cause speaking from personal experiance it sucks!! But if you do just remember that it\'s not always that big of a deal, and if your head blows up like a baalllooonn...don\'t freak it\'ll go back to normal (lol)
Yeah finding a Dr that I can talk to about this sortta thing (ED) is something on my list, cause I think it needs to be done, but besides the fact that I\'m scared I really don\'t know how to find one.
Kudos for putting up with yours.
gotta ask yourself, would you rather see her now while you still have a chance at choosing to recover or would you rather wait to see the doctor for another couple of months when you could very well be sick enough to have that control taken away?
the choice is yours (for now) why don\'t you get on with your life!?! you said you want to do what other 20 year olds are doing, so see the doctor, tell her you need help, but don\'t let her lead the situation...yes you need her help, but being forced into something that\'s not necessary isn\'t going to help either. maybe an IOP would be a good idea. it\'s unlikely that you\'d go back ip unless you wait around before seeing her.
just my thoughts. i don\'t believe that comes across negatively, if it does i apologize. just thought i\'d put in my two cents worth!