i totally have new pictures up everyone! i took my main profile photo today! lolso yea...i thought that the 6 flags trip was so much fun and that riding the rides wasnt as painful as last time...well the time before this must have been really bad for me to think that this time was so much more comfortable....as i now have a huge bruise on my back....its because im too skinny and i have no padding to protect myself on the rides when they jostle u around...and when u dont fill up the seat, u get jostled believe me......but all i know is that this bruise is nothin in comparison to when i went to darien lake when i was deadly skinny...that was so PAINFUL...i was miserable that day but i had to pretend like i was having fun...cuz when u go to an amusement park, ur supposed to have fun.......well yesterday, i had fun and i didnt have to pretend to even once! i showed my mom and my sister my bruise and my mom was like "its because u dont have any padding because u dont eat!"...and my sister joked that along with that pole they make little kids stand next to to make sure that they are tall enough to ride the ride...they should have a weight requirement...she was like "u have to be this big around to ride this ride" and she made a circle with her hands........lol she's such an ass...but i love her anyways...i feel as though im not allowed to get offended when someone brings up my ED...i instead feel ashamed for having one...and i let my family make their jokes about itwell on the food side of things...i am SO GOOD at talking myself down from eating...i hate this ability! i talk myself out of eating one thing after another...i need to stop this and eat what i had planned on eating that day...i cannot subtract food from an already deadly diet!...this is insane! i am insane!
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Sounds you had a lot of fun. Sorry I know how it feels when people bring up my weight and tease. It\'s getting easier to forgive, though. It\'s funny, but I\'m working the steps of OA and it says \"Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity\"
I\'m thinking, hey I never had any sanity to begin with so where am I going back to? You\'re the best! XOXOXOXO
So glad that it sounds like you are having fun again. It is hard sometimes when people joke about Ed\'s, but don\'t put too much thought into it. They are not doing it to hurt you. You do need to make sure that eat everyday and stop subtracting food. You can have so many more fun times if you just let yourself.
Thanks for the advice. Actions do speak louder than words and that is what I am planning on doing.
When I was supposed to go to an amusement park last week, my mom was making fun of me too. She said I would have to ride the kiddy rides because I don\'t weigh enough to ride the regular rides. She also said to be careful I don\'t fall out of any rides.
hey yea i like ur pics but something struck me from looking at ur pics, ur best friend is very thin, does she have an ED too? i no its not my business but its good that if she does u have a best friend that nos wat ur going through, just make sure ur not competing for whos skinnier ( as vulgar as that sounds)
thats great that yuu had such funn.
and yuu are not insane!
thats whatt an ed dose to yuu.
yuu can get past it but its not gunna be easy.
thats why we are all here for yuu.