wow...i got my phone call from my college! my password was reset, and i was therefore able to register for my classes today! woo hoo! although only pretty much evening courses were open....but that fits with me pretty well...i am more of a night person.....everyone in my house knows better than to wake me up in the morning....not a pretty picture....enough saidmy dad is in this stellar mood! he was all smiling at me...and talking like a human being to me! not a single jab......and he was being all nice to my sis when she came over....wow...she noticed it to....it has seemed that ever since he was in that motorcycle accident he has been so bitter.....but hopefully this is a sign that that mood is lifting! i am seeing my fun dad that i used to have! hope this lasts!my sister moves in this weekend.....im nervous yet excited......also, i took someones advice that they left in my journal the other day and i have been looking at ads for places that are for rent and i have been showing them to my sister! lol hope this tactic works!im kind of feeling as though i am in a never winning battle with this site.....i love this place...yet it seems that every time i turn around, i have a new friend request....and i dont wanna turn them down....so i always accept....and then i feel guilty cuz i know that i cant get to everyones journal.......for this reason i tend to frequent the same journals time and time again.......so im sorry if i dont get to urs....please forgive me!my moms bday is coming up......my sister wants to go to the porn shop and get her gag gifts......and she wants to bake her a dirty cake.....lol i dont know about my sister sometimes!on the ED side of things......i am down another 1.5 lbs.....not a good thing.....god i wish i could just frikin order my body to cling to the weight it has for dear life!!!!!! my mom totally offered me candy at bingo tonight.....i automatically said no......i wish that i didnt do this reflexively and that i actually took a piece every so often.....cuz if i dont they stop asking.......and it feels good to be asked.......it feels normal
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I have understanding to the stress of your situation and that\'s interesting to me cause our ED\'s are almost opposite.
So glad you got your classes scheduled! I actually loved evening classes in college. I am praying for you to not lose more weight and for your eating to become more \"normal\". Hugs!
I totally know what you mean about wanting people to offer so that you feel normal. People have stopped offering food to me at work, and although i always said \"no\" I liked the idea that they asked me because that almost signified to me that everything was okay, you know? Also, I think having a sister is such an amazing thing, I have a sister and she keeps me strong but they also can relate to all the family stuff that no one else gets. Hope everything is going well for you, I am in awe at your ability to journal everyday- you are amazing!
thankk god teyy got yuu the password!and goodluckk in college.
i hoppe yur weight gets to a point yuur happy withh.
when you catch yourself saying no, choose to say yes! it gets easier with practice, i swear!
Same as Erica, just breaking old habits. Got easier for me so far. I don\'t have the problem with friend requests, I have like 6 or 7. Look at my picture, who would want to be friends with an overweight Labrador? XOXOXOXO