ok one more thing that is pissing me off that i need to get off of my chest.....people on here who are having a love affair with their ED and are trying to find help to get worse on this site....this is not a PRO ED site! so if this is ur motive.....dont bother contacting me!today was rather boring......went to work....then i went to my sisters house.....burned a cd...thats about it!this boy charlie that i graduated high school with wants to take me out.....lol....why is it that i am never at a loss for guys but these guys are never the right one for me!........i guess i dont trust men as far as i can throw them....i have been lied to so many times...."o i love u!" "i have never felt this way about a girl before"......well what a bunch of BS that all turned out to be in the end! grrrr...there is this guy in FL right now that had said he liked me....but i havent talked to him in awhile.....i think maybe hes avoiding me......i think he is either mad at me or has a gf now.....too bad though cuz i plan on marrying a cop and living somewhere where it is warm year round.......he is a cop and he happens to live somewhere warm yr round.....could have workedsorry about my thoughts being all over the place all of the time.....its just that i think of things i wanna put in here all of the time....but then my mind comes to a blank when im actually on here typing out my thoughts.....but i do remember something i had wanted to put in here...it was an event that happened when i was in my dieting stage.....still innocent and not ED yet....it was night....and i was hungry.....i wanted a bowl of lucky charms more than anything in the world at that moment....so i got down on my bed floor on my knees......and curled up so that my head was near the ground and i sat there for awhile coaxing myself to get into bed and not go downstairs and eat.....i told myself that i would never lose weight if i kept giving into the urges to eat......i told myself that the sooner i went to sleep the sooner i could wake up and eat lucky charms........so i went to sleep that night......without the cereali dont not know what to do with myself tomorrow.......i have work off...i hate having work off cuz then i feel like a lazyass....and this affects my eating.....but i am GOING to work on this and try to teach myself to RELAX!!!
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Hang in there gal...And I agree with your comment that too many women are here for the wrong reasons. I also can relate to you bout the whole guy thing...I only seem to go for bad boys and jerks and just pass the good ones by...Well, hope your evening goes well...Hugs
hey missy try and discover sum things u enjoy doing hard to know wen youve had an ed for such a long time u 4get what u enjoy dnt u but try and distract urself from the ed just for one day and explore things tht interest u and find out what u like to do to relax!
Sorry people are making you so angry. I don\'t get angry here very often because I don\'t have many friends. I just stick with a few people and call it good, because that\'s kind of how I am.
I hope you have a good day....do something fun! I wish I was off today too. My job sucks!
yeh i know what you mean about the pro-ED. Hopefully you\'ll find something fun to do on your day off! best of luck hun!
I do get really frustrated with those who have that \"love affair\" with their ED. It\'s like they use this site to get worse. But that\'s just how I contort it in my head...there could be some reason they write the way they do. Don\'t let \'em affect you girl. You do what you know is right, let them come around in their own time. And on the other hand, there are plenty of us who know the truth and are really trying to get better, to fight our ED\'s beause we know in our hearts that we\'re only hurting ourselves. We don\'t have to live like this...we just gotta work at it ;)