i totally stressed myself out enough to go to my sister's house at midnight last night and have her bf scan my drivers license (the college needs a photo id) and email that and my info to the college so that they can reset my password for me.....now i await their phone call......i needed to be proactive...i was....and now i wait......please call me soon! i dont know if anyone ever does this....but i was sitting there reading today...and i could totally feel my heart pounding in my chest....and all i could think about is....is this what a normal heart feels like? or is mine gonna seize up?......i dont like having thoughts like this.....i know that having an ED causes me to have to think about these possbilities....so my cousin got his wisdom teeth out...and he can only eat soft foods....i am getting mine out soon.....not like tomorrow or ne thing but within the year...and i just know im gonna use it as another excuse to not eat much.......gotta plan for this to perhaps change this outcome.....maybe i can will my wisdom teeth to disappear....has any one had any luck with this trick?i have figured out some of my triggers.....at work when someone orders the diet ice cream ED perks up.......and also at home when someone eats one of my safe foods....ED gets pissed.......ed got a little stroke today.....i was at work and i was getting ice cream from the big walk in freezer....and there is a shitload of ice cream in there so to get the flavors in the back, i had to climb up on top of the ice cream containers and walk on them.....now a heavy person, or a short person could not do this since there was alot of high stacks to climb over.....i turned around....and my boss is standing there....i thought that she might yell at me for walking on the ice cream....but she was smiling....she was like "they said i needed someone thin to get the ice cream....and i have someone thin to do it!"....lol there now i have (or ED has) made myself more indispensible to my boss.....so after work i went to cash my check (it was payday!! woo hoo!!!)....and i cash it at the store where my best friend works....but she wasnt there today cuz shes off camping....but while i was there, the guy she totally likes (who doesnt like her back) totally started flirting with me.....i think that since she's my best friend that he would be off limits.......the another part of me says u can keep it secret!....then another part says maybe he was just being friendly and ur raging hormones read it as flirting!....then another part of my head yells hes 17 going on 18 and ur 20!.......then another part says when hes 20 and ur 23 it wont be that big of a deal.....then another part says yea and he so looks older than he is......then another part of me says shut up missy god stop obsessing about something u arent even sure of yet.........now after reading this arent u guys all glad that u arent stuck in my head?
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it\'ll all work out in the end..........if not i\'ll send you one of my pills and you can be stoned like me and not care about it any more.......lol
Hope the college people call you soon. I have a trick for the wisdom teeth thing....milkshakes or smoothies (just don\'t drink with a straw!) That way you won\'t lose weight. Pudding and twice-baked potatoes work too. Hope you have a good day. Hugs!
I was supposed to get my wisdom teeth taken out earlier in the year. The oral surgeon looked at me and asked me if I have an eatting disorder. I thought it was none of his bussiness, so I said no. He said if I did I would really have to tell him because there could be compilcations because of the anastetic. So I never got them taken out and they haven\'t been bothering me. If you do have themm taken out, maybe you should be honest with your oral surgeon and them him/her you have ED. My oral surgeon said I could have a heart attack and you wouldn\'t want that.
It\'s not a big deal to go out with a 17 year old. I dated a 17 year old for about a month right after I turned 22. I looked alot younger, so he told his mom I was 19. I hated having to lie to her, but I also knew our relationship wouldn\'t last because he was just too immature for me. But it was fun. I felt like I was a kid again when I was with him. I even went to the prom with him. I never got to go to a prom before because I was home schooled. But then I met my husband and the rest is history.
I call my excuses \"thin tickets\" and personally I\'ve run out of them. I can\'t eat because... well anorexics look for excuses. Being skinny always has advantages, but for us it could mean death which is a big disadvantage. And \"just get stoned?\" What messed up advice is that?
i just got my wisdom teeth out last December. ed was in full swing, and i knew i could lose more weight. funny thing is, they give you REALLY GOOD painkillers. i ate fairly normal for the first time in months (for almost an entire week). hopefully, that\'ll happen to you too. then you\'re ed won\'t run rampant!!
Hey....thanks for your encouraging comment....the heart thing I have something kinda like that. Sometimes it feels really odd, like it\'s working hard to stay at a \"normal\" state..i\'ve noticed though that this mostly happens when I have lost some weight or am really empty(food wise). Sometimes I don\'t even have to weigh myself to know that I screwed up and lost weight...my heart tells me, and that\'s when I really freak out and work more honestly to get healthy, gain weight.I\'m not for sure if this heart thing is just us being paranoid or if it really isn\'t normal....all i know is the best way to handle it is to get healthy, and work as hard as you can to do it..I hope you have lots of success in doing so...same for me....sorry for the looong comment..lol...keep up the positiveness...Jenny