im slowly increasing my intake.......god i hate admitting this aloud....to anyone...especially on here...cuz my mind jumps to the fact that i may gain weight (which i know is insane at that amount i am eating but still ED thinks higher means gain...i have just raised myself to eating 600 calories in a day)...and that i will be fat and u guys will all be skinny......i dont wanna be the fat anorexic...but i also dont wanna be anorexic.....i just wanna be normal! i am trying! i really am!!!! i have been informed by numerous DRs that since i am tall i need more calories....does anyone short out there wanna trade bodies???
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No thanks. I\'ve already got a tall skinny one. I\'m glad I\'m an anorexic, how crazy is that. I need a label in order to get better. I know I\'ll never be normal. I know how you feel. XOXOXO
Hey keep going with your recovery step!!! Don\'t worry about being the only one or getting fat..youre not gonna get fat..your gonna get healthy and normal...I have increased my intake too and at first it was really weird,uncomfortable, and hard, but after a while it gets easier and becomes part of your life again...a healthy part...you start to see changes in yourself..good ones..so keep it up...u can do it..if I can you can too!
sorry i am tall too. i feel exactly how you explained here. how do we get ed out of our heads? my bigest thing about treatment is i will get fat. that is my big fear but my biggest is leaving my kids.
You wanna talk about normal...The first thing I thought of when I found out I was pregnant, was \"oh no! I\'m going to get fat!\" How messed up is that!!! Keep trying, I know 600 cal./day sounds like a lot...but it\'s better than the alternative...and I\'m sure I\'m not the only one who hopes that you will stick with us...
I think about that all the time. I will be the fat one of the group while you guys are skinny. I know that\'s Abe, but I really do feel like that so I guess it is just another thing that binds us together.
I\'m proud of you for taking the first step! I know it\'s hard for you to see now, but you are in no danger of getting fat.....your body actually needs at least 3 times the calories you are eating now to maintain weight at your height. You are on the right track....slowly increase a little more eventually if you can.......you are not gonna get fat, I promise! hugs!
you have to gain to be healthy.
you said it yourself, you don\'t want to be anorexic. so once you\'ve taken control over this damn ED, maybe less frequent interaction with people that trigger you and make you think \"oh NO, i\'m gonna be the fat anorexic\" will help. there is no reason to think that being healthy means being fat. if you show that you can and will do this on an outpatient basis you won\'t have to gain more than you are willing to (obviously health is the aim though). congrats on taking the first step hun.
I\'ll trade bodies with you. I\'m 5\'4\" and I want to be a model. I\'m too short to do fashion modeling and I wish I was a little taller.
me too, 5\'2 and want some long legs for my dancin!