so i went to my therapist today...as i do every tues........well she told me that she talked to my dr and to my ed dr...and that they both feel that i should probably look into going back into treatment before the end of summer.......and my reaction was i will do ANYTHING to keep myself out of there......and she asked me what i would do? and i said i would start sucking down milkshakes so that i could avoid treatment.....and her response was well u had better start sucking thengod it sounds so much easier than it actually is.........but i NEED to do this if i wanna be able to stay at a weight where i am comfortable...if i go back there i will be forced to gain about 30 lbs.......and i also have a job and a life! i cant keep going into treatment........she also said something that i keep thinking about.......she said that if i hadnt gone inpatient in the hospital last year.........that right now...i would be dead....no doubt about iti always leave my therapy sessions feeling motivated to change...i had totally walked into therapy planning on cutting my day's calories from ridiculously low to even more ridiculously low....but since the appt i have decided to increase to more than i normally consume....i can do this! after the appt my day got sunnier! lol..........came home went swimming with my family......took a walk.........read alot........so all in all it was an ok day....back to work tomorrow!
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if you ever need to talk it seems like we have a lot in common in here hun.
Being healthy isn\'t so hard, is it? I know it is for me, so I know what you mean. I\'m lucky because no one thinks or knows I have a problem except Neil. I think you should try to be better. I am such a bad person for advice on this because I wish I could do the same, but I do try. Everyday I have a goal, even if it\'s to force myself to ENJOY what i\'m eating, or allow myself to have some rice, ya know? Just the little steps. I wish you luck! I\'m always around if you need to chat.
I can relate. My dr thinks I\'m OK since I come from a family with four sisters all tall and skinny. She says my weight is genetic. My therapist says that my weight isn\'t healthy because he knows how I really feel about it. Your journal is scaring me, and I\'m going to send you a message.
You can do this! I believe in you
start making those milkshakes, or those protein smoothies that help gain weight!
hun, if you think you can do this weight gain on your own, then do. but if there is any hesitation, it may be best to go back into the hospital for a short stint so that you don\'t have to do it alone. keep your head up!