so my sister is moving back in on july 1st....and i have been single bandedly moving her stuff here for her and storing it in my room until the extra room is done......but all in all i am having mixed feelings about this change...i love my sister so much and she is one of my fav people in the entire world...i would die for her....but i dont want her to see my ED fully...she knows about it...but she doesnt see my routines around food...and im afraid that she will get pissed at me like my parents or that she will adopt my eating habits to try and lose a little bit of weight...im also afraid that she will eat my safe foods and i will be left with nothing......i need to stop this! i love her and i am being selfish with these thoughts!so the power went out at work today...so i got sent home an hour early after sitting around for an hour and a 1/2 telling people that we are closed due to power failure....well i came home and i was trying to have a normal convo with my dad...i asked him how much he thinks the tv in my bedroom weighs...cuz if it weighs under 55 lbs then my sister wants to switch with me cuz hers is over 55 lbs and she cant hang it on her wall....he says and i quote "i dont know missy...y dont u weigh it on one of ur scales? u have like 10 of the god damned things!".....i was stunned....i have 2 scales and i only have 2 because i had one and then that broke and so i bought a new one...then the one that broke began working again...so i have 2...not 10...jerk! i didnt say this though...i dont have a death wish thank u very much...i just walked away and stopped talking.....which brings me to my next point...fathers day is tomorrow....the day when we all pretend that we have the best dad in the world...i havent been getting along with my dad these past couple of years...but i still wrote that he is the worlds best dad in the card i got him.......funny isnt it? well im gonna plead that i wrote that cuz i dont have another dad to compare him to...i have one dad...therefore he is the best i know.........glad im working most of the day tomorrow....
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hey things hopefully will work out and i am so sorry your father said that to u.
tht was not a very sensitive thing to say!!!!!!
good attitude about your dad.
i have an ass of a step dad and a sick twisted real father. i guess i can look at my step dad as the best dad i\'ve ever known, despite his flaws. thanks hun
I know you have lots of fears about your sister coming. Try to remember that most all the things we fear never come true. \"We\'re only as sick as our secrets.\" Sorry Dad is making it harder. XOXOXOXOXO