so i had one last fight with craig...i simply told him outright that i deserve to be happy...and he cant make me happy....he didnt like that....tried telling me that hes seeing someone else....i laughed and told him that hes full of shit cuz like 5 min ago he was basically wanting to hump my leg!........w/e...i told him he has a piss poor temper...he called me a bitch 3 times...and then hung up on me....GEE DID I CALL THE TEMPER THING OR WHAT GUYS?!!!!i have 2 drs appts tomorrow...1st one is wiht my primary care physician....shit shit shit....i NEED to wear the heaviest clothes i own...anything for extra weight....need to drink a shitload of water b4 the appt....i think he makes me wait for him for so long to make me suffer there needing to pee cuz i have just drunk myself in oblivion with water.......i cannot let him know ive lost weight! i CANT go back to treatment! i need to live my life! we only get so much time on this earth and i dont wanna waste mine in a hospital!....i KNOW what i need to do....but this cannot be done b4 tomorrows  appt...so i need to use the quick fix...wish me luck!!!then at 5pm i have a family therapy session...im nervous....but my dad isnt coming....he has to go somewhere for his work....o well....these therapy sessions help him i think....but i get along better with my mom.....im nervous all around....about both appts.............AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!**ADDITIONAL THOUGHT**this has helped me when i was in treatment...."WTF AM I SO AFRAID OF¿?¿? let's say i allow urself to eat more....and i gain weight....and i get to a point where im uncomfortable...i KNOW how to lose the weight.....so y not try health on for a change?"

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Nice thought.
I could use the same philosophy.. Try health awhile.. If I dont like it.. I certainly know how to eat and get fat again.. :)
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that\'s a really big step being able to get to the point where you can even consider that! well done! I hope you can do it!! Best of luck!x
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I\'m considering inpatient for myself, because my plan isn\'t working right now. I think \"it probably won\'t do any good\" but I think it\'s because I\'m scared. Is it a scary place to be? I\'ve never been.
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Good for you getting rid of Craig!...you deserve better! Good luck with your appointments today
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Sometimes it is helpful to think about what would happen if i did gain weight? Would it be the end of the world? Could i still be happy? It allows a different perspective on things. Good luck girlie!
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You can do it!! You deserve to be healthy and happy!!Good luck!
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I told you before to stop wasting your time on him but you never listen to me...: )~
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aw fuck that dude! any man that treats someone like that isn\'t worth much.
and don\'t worry too much abotu ur doc appointment...just keep trying...and if u wanna chat let me know....HUGS GIRLIE! Luv ya!
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good for u for getting rid of him, u deserve better!