u know what ive decided? ive only got ONE life there is only ONE me...and i deserve to be happy! craig keeps messenging me and calling me....but u know what? i dont go out of my way to make time for him cuz it's my freudian way of telling myself that he doesnt make me happy! i mean y do we date? we date in order to find someone to eventually marry......i could never see myself marrying craig...i would totally be settling if i did! and i dont wanna settle! not now not ever!weight sucks! im pissed! ive lost two more pounds....im at 132.5 lbs.....6ft tall......i have a DRs appt on monday...im terrified...gotta chug the water b4 getting weighed so that i can appear heavier on the scale...i dont and wont go back to partial....i know what i have to do....i just wish that my body didnt need food ever! then i wouldnt have to deal with this losing weight and then having to gain it.....u know what's funny? sometimes i wish that i could be fat just so that i could lose the weight and not get snide remarks about me losing it....also it would be fun cuz its what i am good at....some people are good at running, some at playing the stock market, but no...i am good at losing weight......i could totally open a weight loss facility to try and help obese people lose weight....but then i think to myself that these people are fat for a reason....they love to eat.....and on my plan u kind of have to not like eating....so i guess i should keep thinking when it comes to what i should do for a career!
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I\'ve been doing a lot of school thinking latley too.. I\'m going for a Ph in plant science/argiculture and starting up my own organic farm.
i also sometimes wish i were overweight so nobody would make comments wen i lose weight, and i could once again hear the \"u look good did u lose weight?\" comments...nope never get those anymore.
and missy? i dont think i have to tell u that it sounds like u shouldnt still be going out with craig!
I don\'t get those \"u look good\" compliments either. Someone actually asked me if I had cancer. Yeah we could be business partners on weight loss. Weight gain isn\'t happening for me. I\'m losing again. Keep writing and the answer about Craig will come to you, though sounds like you have it already.
I think you are right about Craig. If he doesn\'t make you happy, then you need to find someone who will. The right person is the one who helps YOU be a better person. He\'s the one who makes you want to get up and fight for YOU.
Instead of being good at losing weight why not dump E.D., turn the tables and make yourself good at eating healthy? It won\'t happen over night but I know eating things slowly and adding even just 1 new thing a week will get you slowly back to healthy! Keep fighting.
Losing weight is what I do best too. I tried helping an obese guy that I worked with lose weight. My plan for him was to eat just like me. He didn\'t even last a day. He liked to eat too much. That\'s one thing I don\'t get about people, who can some people like food so much?
And don\'t waste your time with Craig if he doesn\'t make you happy. You deserve to be happy and the right guy will come along when you least expect it.
i suckypoo at losing weight unless im in the groove cause im not just a Annie or a B/P im a binger also...so pretty much no matter what day of the week....im in some kind of mess...im not eating enough, eating and throwing up, or eating too much. i hate food but i love it. so my advice to you is going to be only try to keep a weight that is \"healthy\" for your BMI....cause i dont\' know how to make someone like food...just like i don\'t know how to make me NOT like it...i just get paranoid over it.....k...nuff babbleing...have a good day tomorrow chickie poo...msg soon..
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