to sink or swim.....to sink or swim...is that not really the question we all ask ourselves all of the time? i was thinking about this today...i personally think that this quote fits someone trying to recover from an ED perfectly.....when ur extremely sick with ED then chances are u have very little body fat and thus would sink to the bottom of the pool like a rock (i have done this at my worst).....as u also sink where living is concerned...ur life is not full and happy like it should be....whereas if u have a little more substance to u....u would not sink like a rock and thus would float closer to the top....safety....just like if u kick ur ED out of ur mind....u would live longer and have a safer and happy life.........just a thoughti just wanna stop ruining my life and everyone elses......i JUST WANNA BE A FAMILY again...i am so sick of this shell of a family we have going on....im tired of silence because my parents dont really wanna talk to me.....they r so fed up with ED that they cant stand to be around me much.....this hurts...i wanna be normal if that is what will make me happy! i know that the only way to be happy is to do the hardest thing ill ever have to do......and that scares me! i wanna give it up in theory....but when push comes to shove.....its FUCKING HARD to do! i feel so stuck!
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i think i am sinking. thanks for putting it in this way. it gives me something to think about.
all low i dont no u i dont think your parents cant stand u maybe there scared! to be around u! they maybe dont no what to sayx why dont u try a eating plan a healthy one 3 meals a day and tick once its done and its an achievement as well as getting healthy! keep fighting your a strong person to come this far take care and im here if u want to talkx
What you wrote is so true. I constantly feel that when I am swimming, it usually up hill.
I think we\'re all in this lifeboat called recovery. Trouble is when someone throws me a life preserver I say \"I\'m fine, leave me alone and stop throwing shit at me\" I can\'t sink or swim. I just need to stay in the boat where I belong. Thanks for you all being in it with me!