today my therapist compared me to a log floating in a river.....i am taking direction from everything and everyone else around me and i dont get to do what i want to do with my life...i do everything to make everyone else happy....i dont even know what the hell makes me happy....this is so true...i told her that i desperately do not want to live the rest of my life for other people....i dont wanna die without really REALLY living my life and living it for me.....i want to be happy!
she also said that my dad wants me to be happy...and that is y he is so hard on me every time i make a mistake.....she says that he sees me making a mistake as me taking some happiness potential out of my life.....
i also feel like i go to therapy for my parents...and for other people...like so that i can say im doing something to help my ED...i dont think therapy is gonna cure me...i wish it would...but its been 3 yrs....i dont wanna be a hopeless case.....i wanna be helped! i wanna live!!!
she also said that my dad wants me to be happy...and that is y he is so hard on me every time i make a mistake.....she says that he sees me making a mistake as me taking some happiness potential out of my life.....
i also feel like i go to therapy for my parents...and for other people...like so that i can say im doing something to help my ED...i dont think therapy is gonna cure me...i wish it would...but its been 3 yrs....i dont wanna be a hopeless case.....i wanna be helped! i wanna live!!!
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Well it may have been three years for ya, but your doing something. Im doing nothing. Around here \"help\" doesn\'t seem to be happening. My doc was supposed to set me up but i havn\'t heard from anyone yet. But regardless, live your life for you, although it may be a cycle that is hard to break for you if u\'ve done it for a while, live, love, laugh. Hugs girlie. Have a good nite.
you\'re not helpless. and you are right, therapy won\'t cure you. It just gives you more insight so that when you are ready to heal yourself, you do!
stick with it and keep ya chin up :)! and being compared to a log every one had been compared to a log ! i know i was compared to a tree (thats kinda similar!) i was always a tree when i was little in plays was jks!
i am also a people pleaser. doing for others. at lease u wanta be helped and live and r working at it. i\'m proud of u.
Therapy does give you more insight and helps you understand your actions and feeling, but it is not the cure. Taking control of YOUR life and ED is what gives you recovery. You are discovering so much about yourself and others. Soon you\'ll be able to help yourself and take care of care so you can live the life you were intended to have.
I really believe in therapy. The short time I had it, it really helped. I\'d actually like to go back! It won\'t cure you though...it will show you how to help cure yourself. Your paths you take are ultimately up to you. Have a good day...hugs!
I feel the same way about therapy and my therapist told me the same thing. We both feel that I am going to therapy so my husband and mom can see that I am trying to help myself. Therapy hasn\'t worked yet for me, but I\'ve only gone 3 times.
I also feel like a log in the river. I do what everyone else tells me to do and I make sure I do all I can to make everyone else happy, but I don\'t do anything to make myself happy.