i go through moods....some days i am depressed...some days i am happy go lucky and am on top of the world...some days i dont wanna be near anyone...and some days i absolutely love everyone...today i found myself feeling reflective and just so thankful..i love these days because they make me appreciate the things i already have...
today i found myself thankful that.....
1) i have my best friend tracy...i love that girl
2) my sister jen is my sister...i love her to death...i would do anything for u
3) my dad (although pissed at me this morning for eating all of the lettuce in the house) for coming to my work and treating me nicely...and actually speaking to me
4) for my job
on a totally different subject....i weighed myself this morning...no good came out of it...ive lost weight...which truely pisses me off...cuz if i had gained then that means that i get to cut back on the food intake...and if i stayed the same then that means that i can keep goin the way i am...but losing means that i either do the hardest god damned thing for me to do at the moment which is to eat more food...or i will have to go back to partial and prove to my parents that they were right......choices choices....
today i found myself thankful that.....
1) i have my best friend tracy...i love that girl
2) my sister jen is my sister...i love her to death...i would do anything for u
3) my dad (although pissed at me this morning for eating all of the lettuce in the house) for coming to my work and treating me nicely...and actually speaking to me
4) for my job
on a totally different subject....i weighed myself this morning...no good came out of it...ive lost weight...which truely pisses me off...cuz if i had gained then that means that i get to cut back on the food intake...and if i stayed the same then that means that i can keep goin the way i am...but losing means that i either do the hardest god damned thing for me to do at the moment which is to eat more food...or i will have to go back to partial and prove to my parents that they were right......choices choices....
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thanks... oh i really want just one little twix that will turn into ten...ugh ill have a coffee instead.wow ! other end of the scale huh... you find it difficult to eat...I know what you mean with the moods... ugh frustrating when the bad ones swing in huh !
eat some all peanut butter, the kind w/ no hydrogenated oils. it is so yummy. it can\'t be about food. this needs to be about health. don\'t feel guilty. maybe try setting a goal to fill out the entire food pyramid. like it doesn\'t matter how much, but try to make it balanced. just a thought
I understand what you mean about weight loss and having to make yourself eat more. I\'m in that same position myself. It is frustrating because that is the HARDEST thing to do, eating more than you are already cramming in:) I know how it feels, sweetie. Just know I am there with you:)
You can beat this.Take it one day at a time.Your a strong gal,and I know that you\'ll prove your parents wrong!!
Hey...maybe the right move is to 86 the scale. I didn\'t own one for about 5 years...I even made the Doctor weigh me with my back to the numbers so I wouldn\'t be able to see how much I weighed. I own one now, and it isn\'t helpful...it\'s only caused me to obsess some more. I try to avoid it. It sounds like you are surrounded by loving people, let them help you, but also make choices to help yourself. That is the only way out!
hey missy! im sorry ur dad hasnt been so understanding but u can prove everyone wrong...i know u can! and im happy u had one of those thankful sorta days, we all need those once in a while.