went to therapy today....didn't get to go last week cuz of traffic court...my therapist told me that i need to stop trying to make my dad proud of me by doing things extremely well...i need to do things for me and not care what he thinks.......this is so much harder than it sounds...i feel like i have disppointed him and that i am a failure in his eyes....o well enough about dad....my therapist confirmed that my aunt who had the GB surgery is indeed competing with me to lose weight...and that she indeed has her own little ED...not anorexia or bulimia but she is preoccupied with weight, size, and food....she said that i should try to avoid her or tell her straight out that i refuse to talk about weight and diets with her (this is a little too confrontational for me...so i think ill avoid her)....
about the only good thing that happened today is that on my way to therapy i got hit on by two guys who were in a car next to me...i dont know y..i had on no makeup and my hair was wet cuz i had taken a shower b4 leaving the house...but o well! c'est la vie!