ahh yes...the day of the mother's...or mother's day....another one of society's excuses for a big dinner party!! ugh...so i worked until 5....came home to a house full of people (my parents love love love to have the parties at our house...they like to play hosts)....all was going well to start...they were already eating cuz they knew there was no sense in waiting for me since i had no intentions in eating at the party.....so while we were cleaning up...my aunt pulls me over to her and said something that bothered the shit outta me.....she said "omg missy i cant wait until my surgery!!! the doctor is gonna cut off 5 inches of extra skin all around my stomach and the loose skin off my butt! im gonna have a flat tummy and a tight butt!".....my aunt used to be really fat but she had gastric bypass surgery (which i see as the fat persons easy way out and i think it should be banned)...and she lost alot of weight so she has all of this loose skin...and she talks about her weight loss and how little she can eat now...she talks about this all of the time.....and she keeps trying to feed everyone around her food...and lots of sweets...i dont know if she is trying to fatten everyone else up around her or something....haha i think that she is displaying an ED behavior!...ok well ne ways...what ED heard my aunt say was "wow missy im gonna get a gorgeous body....im gonna be as skinny as u"(i know she wont be but ed told me other wise) so in my mind...ED advised me....dont let her win the weight loss competition!!!! eat less!!! u can beat her! ur body will be leaner and will look alot better than hers ever will!!!!!

ok i know my body looks loads better than hers ever will (i feel mean saying this but its true)....and this was all yesterday and i had to see my aunt again today...needless to say ive been fighting with my head all day long....ugh...

note to self : sometimes ur ahead...sometimes ur behind...the race is long...and in the end it's only with urself