feelin loads better.....not happy go lucky normal me yet...but not i dont wanna do anything leave me the fuck alone me either....so i guess that's something....went to school....i found out that i have an A in my introduction to computer applications class...so that made me feel good...then i came home and slept for an hour...then i went out with my sister shopping...she complained the whole time about how FAT she has gotten...and how she cannot believe that last year she was in a size 6 (she wasnt...she is always buying clothes that are too small for her cuz she refuses to admit that she needs a bigger size)...she got so upset about how much weight she has gained...she is not fat by any means...shes chubby yes but not fat...and having her sit there and rant about weight and fat rolls and how big she feels she is...did not have a good impact on my actions....o well i would rather not eat much then have someone censor what they say because they think it might affect my eating...i do not want people to feel that they have to watch what they say around me...i have to take responsibilty for my own actions and thought processes....situation:someone talking about weight gain/not fitting into clothes
my reaction: eat very little because i like being skinny
i cannot blame my response on my sister...i just wish i didnt respond this way...y must ED be so damn touchy??
my reaction: eat very little because i like being skinny
i cannot blame my response on my sister...i just wish i didnt respond this way...y must ED be so damn touchy??
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im the type that if u tell me i lost weight...i like it so i dont\' wanna gain...and if u tell me i gained weight....well obviously that has a negative effect too.....lose lose situation....if your sister had of gone on about how happy she was with her weight and how comfortable she was in her body would that have made you depressed b/c of ur ED?
Sorry my message was blank. I\'m just learning how to work this *&^% computer. I\'m just learning how to work my*&^%$ life. Went out to Mexican with husband and kids and stuffed myself stupid. I was starved like some Ethiopian kid. No control issues tonight and life rocks! God I can think now. Going to have a talk with my husband tonight about my disease. Wish me luck. He is more of a yeller than a communicator.
i\"m sorry. You are so insightful. I think you are awesome.
Awe...try to remember that people say things without even thinking about how it will effect us!!My sisters do the same thing all the time.I can\'t even eat when they are around.I\'m glad that you have what sounds like a good relationship with her!!Sisters are awesome...most of the time!!
Well done on the A!!!!! I bet ur very happy with urself and u should be. Yeah i remember when people used to have to watch on egg shells around me and watch what they say, now when ppl say what i don\'t like, I just don\'t listen and refuse to take it onboard.