it is friday...i love fridays!!! means i get to sleep in tomorrow!!! hooray!....ok more randomness from me.....
1) i heard the the dairy queen commercial with the twi kids being suspended from hooks is being banned...apparantly some kid somewhere in the country has died that way?
2) sometimes the only way i keep myself going is by telling myself that when i am 50 i will let go of ANA and eat whatever the hell i want...if i get fat i wont care...cuz ill be old.....
3) sometimes i feel very grateful for my friends ( im happy to have them all of the time do not get me wrong...its just that sometimes it strikes me how lucky i truely am)....like ym best friend tracy...i think she deserves a best friend other than me ....but she loves me as her best friend and for this i am truely grateful.....guess im more fun than i give myself credit for
4) i so tired of ny's cold winters...wanna be somewhere warm....
5) i gonna get myself so tan this summer...cannot wait!
6) i frikin LOVE starbucks....mmmmmm
7) i sometimes envy fat people...not because they r fat but because they seem so happy and carefree.....they do not seem to have that internal struggle with themselves over food...i know in my heart of hearts that they r not happy with their bodies and wish that they were thin...but they r able to hide this most of the time it seems....
8) i love my body at the moment...before the hospital i was TOO thin...when i got out i thought i was TOO fat....but now im in between...a little more on the thin side but i liek myself and i wish i could stay this size forever and ever.....
9) i wish i could know what it's like to be truely happy rather than fooling people into thinking that i have everything together when im really a mess.....ive been told that u cannot expect to be happy...u have to go out and get ur own happiness.....think if i stopped and asked for directions to the nearest happiness dealer that someone would tell me how to get there??????
1) i heard the the dairy queen commercial with the twi kids being suspended from hooks is being banned...apparantly some kid somewhere in the country has died that way?
2) sometimes the only way i keep myself going is by telling myself that when i am 50 i will let go of ANA and eat whatever the hell i want...if i get fat i wont care...cuz ill be old.....
3) sometimes i feel very grateful for my friends ( im happy to have them all of the time do not get me wrong...its just that sometimes it strikes me how lucky i truely am)....like ym best friend tracy...i think she deserves a best friend other than me ....but she loves me as her best friend and for this i am truely grateful.....guess im more fun than i give myself credit for
4) i so tired of ny's cold winters...wanna be somewhere warm....
5) i gonna get myself so tan this summer...cannot wait!
6) i frikin LOVE starbucks....mmmmmm
7) i sometimes envy fat people...not because they r fat but because they seem so happy and carefree.....they do not seem to have that internal struggle with themselves over food...i know in my heart of hearts that they r not happy with their bodies and wish that they were thin...but they r able to hide this most of the time it seems....
8) i love my body at the moment...before the hospital i was TOO thin...when i got out i thought i was TOO fat....but now im in between...a little more on the thin side but i liek myself and i wish i could stay this size forever and ever.....
9) i wish i could know what it's like to be truely happy rather than fooling people into thinking that i have everything together when im really a mess.....ive been told that u cannot expect to be happy...u have to go out and get ur own happiness.....think if i stopped and asked for directions to the nearest happiness dealer that someone would tell me how to get there??????
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7.) I am in agreement. I envy my roommate so much because she is a chub, but the cutest little chub ever. And she owns it. She is happy with herself. She is doesn\'t worry about what she eats or her weight or anything. I wish that I could be that carefree.
9.) Me too! If you do find it all out, be sure to let me in on the secret.
10) i forgot this one but this is huge for me....i have a hard time making out with a guy when he has just eaten something or drank something....my mind jumps to..omg calorie transferrence from his mouth to mine!!!!!!
7. mannn i know exactly what you mean!! sometimes i just watch people eat and i\'m like gahh how can they do that and not worry about it?? you know what makes me more jealous...my roommate is thin, good thin, but she eats so much! she must have the fastest metabolism on the planet because she doesn\'t work out or anything and she is the perfect weight.
i\'m glad you are happy with your weight right now!! that\'s amazing, so i wish you luck at staying there!!
2)Honey, I\'m 55, old and still can\'t be okay that I weigh 111.5 when I want to weigh 100. This is not a battle of the body for me now, it\'s a battle of the mind. If I lose, then it becomes a battle of the body again. So, just love yourself now.
LOL, your thoughts certainly all random...but its ok thats why I like you!!!
LOL, let me know if you find that dealer. I would love to find me some of that. :) I am so happy to hear you are happy with your weight. That is awesome!! Keep it up! You can do it! And sleep in for me tomorrow too. By the way I love the radom thoughts! Someone else who is radom like me. YEA!
hello, I know what you mean, sometimes I just want to know what if feels like to be really happy again. I bet on the outside everyone thinks I\'m so happy and perfect. everyone has internal struggles, not everyone wants to be thin though, some peoples internal struggles are different than that. I always think of you when I see starbucks now!!!