something else my therapist said about me is so very very true...nothing i do is ever good enough in my eyes...once i finish something im kicking myself because i still have other things to get done...the quote

Good, better, best. Never let it rest. Until your good is better and your better is best

describes how i feel pretty much on a day to day basis...everything other people do is good enough in my eyes...but ne thing i do...could have been done better.....

also, i have figured out that i am not living...i am merely existing....this means i am taking up space but i am not making the most out of my life....i am letting things happen to me and all around me...but i am not making things happen......it takes things like getting caught doing something bad...(such as speeding or some other illegal activity) to wake me up and show me that although i feel invisible and wish that i could disappear.....other people do see me...i am not invisible yet