well my ED got some stroking today....i know my therapist was making a point but it stuck with me how true it is.....i am a good anorexic...i am one of the best anorexics she has ever seen or heard of....she says that if i put this much time and energy into trying to be good at something else then i would be amazing at that other thing...it's just that i dont know what im good at other than this...im good at staying thin and not eating much.....i know all of the tricks of the trade...i am a master.....
after therapy i met craig at starbucks and this fat chick went up to the countr at one point and craig jokingly said "that's my gf" and i said would u ever date her? and he laughed and said i want one gf not 3.....so of course ANA took control and i whispered to him that this other fat chick who came in later did not need that pastry she was carrying....and that they should make it illegal for fat people to buy stuff that's bad for their weight...and he was like yea...she definitely does not need that whipped cream.....
eating disorder aside...guys are so oblivious......ok i have some colored contacts (i dont need them my vision is perfect so they r non prescription) but i love the color...my eyes r naturally brown and i havent wore my contacts ever when ive been with craig...but today i wore my violet ones (they make me look exotic and sexy, my blue ones make me look innocent and pretty)...and i said "do u notice anything different about me craig?" and he says "o no a test..."
is it your hair?
no
your ears?
no (wtf where does one get interchangeable ears?)
your eyes?
what about them?
your eyelashes?
no....
your eye brows?
no!
the color?
wow good job!
lol guys are funny that way...he noticed my legs and how long they r, and other aspects of my body but not my eye color.....guess im asking for too much.....o well c'est la vie!
after therapy i met craig at starbucks and this fat chick went up to the countr at one point and craig jokingly said "that's my gf" and i said would u ever date her? and he laughed and said i want one gf not 3.....so of course ANA took control and i whispered to him that this other fat chick who came in later did not need that pastry she was carrying....and that they should make it illegal for fat people to buy stuff that's bad for their weight...and he was like yea...she definitely does not need that whipped cream.....
eating disorder aside...guys are so oblivious......ok i have some colored contacts (i dont need them my vision is perfect so they r non prescription) but i love the color...my eyes r naturally brown and i havent wore my contacts ever when ive been with craig...but today i wore my violet ones (they make me look exotic and sexy, my blue ones make me look innocent and pretty)...and i said "do u notice anything different about me craig?" and he says "o no a test..."
is it your hair?
no
your ears?
no (wtf where does one get interchangeable ears?)
your eyes?
what about them?
your eyelashes?
no....
your eye brows?
no!
the color?
wow good job!
lol guys are funny that way...he noticed my legs and how long they r, and other aspects of my body but not my eye color.....guess im asking for too much.....o well c'est la vie!
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I\'m going to try and be kind in saying this because sometimes people say I come across as to blunt.
When you say that \'guess i\'m asking for too much\'. Well hun, what happens if you didn\'t notice something obvious about him, and he said the same thing? I am a totall guy inside. Maybe this is why I don\'t have chick friends lol... I don\'t notice things like that.
At least he noticed your legs. I bet that made you feel sexy? I know Neil says how he loves my neck because it\'s so sexy and feminine. I hope you weren\'t to upset about that he didn\'t notice. If you feel sexy, and I bet you do look exotic, then that\'s all that matters.
I know you are a lot like me because I know I\'m the master with my ED. I bet you like to perfect everything about you. I know I do. I have perfected my tom boy look. My hair will never fall out of place. I will sit there if my mascara is not exactly all even amongst my eye lashes.
Anyways.. lol... As for the fatties.. Neil and I do that all the time. I don\'t know if this will ever go away, but I know we can try to make it a healthy lifestyle instead of an obsessive one.
This is long. But I hope I did not upset you with my words. I mean well. I need a therapist. lol.... Glad the session went well. Chow.
i think all people with eds are the same,noticing what shape and size others are. my sister is opposite to me,clinically obese and she is always commenting on the skinny people.shes always saying to me \"you make me sick,being so skinny\"we then argue cos i will reply\"if you didn,t sit there with that bag of chips and mayonnaise you might lose weight!\" (chips as in fries i,m from across the pond) they are only jealous as we can do something powerful which they cant in restricting what we need.believe me there are times when i want to lose control but cant. i argue with my therepist about the words \"cant\" and \"wont. he says wont so we argue and i leave!
That\'s a guy for you! Haha! About the making fun of fat people, I even find myself doing it at times( and I\'m almost 40 pounds overweight myself!) I feel so mean when i do it...I think it is our way of protecting ourselves. If we point out how horrible they are, we will never be them....and being them is our fear. That\'s my theory anyway! Hope you have a great day!
I am soooo bad at commenting on ppl I see. Like omg what the hell is she wearing that for, u can see her rolls, that kind of thing, im always picking with my friend about someone and its a bad habit for me. Like when i see someone eating something fattening and they are huge, i think omg no wonder why ur fat........