well i had a family therapy session today...it wasnt too bad...well by that i mean it was bad but it could have been worse i guess.....my parents kept insisting that i should go back to partial....and i told them that if they make me then i will just lose the weight again...cuz i refuse to be at 100% of my ideal body weight (the upper limit of the weight i should be for my height)....right now i am teetering at the edge of the lowest end and an unhealthy weight......i think that if i manage to maintain this weight (which i have for about a month now) then everyone should back off and let me be....i saw the first signs of backing off and letting me have more independence when my therapist made my parents see that all of their rude comments are not doing ne thing constructive and that they should stop becuz ive heard it all b4 and these comments only make things worse with my disorder.....i wanted to hug her when she did this because in our private appts she told me that if i agreed to continue fighting the ED then she would get my parents to shut the fuck up........she told them to ignore the ED for now unless things become serious again...because it should not rule the house....i just hope that they really follow this advice....well we'll see....immediately after the appointment they made comments about how i should go to the bank and pull out at least $200 for my ticket...cuz that's what independent people do...they pay their own fines....well after the appointment i went and applied at TOPS to be a cashier...i told my parents that i did this...and they seemed ok with it as long as i start in the summer (and they didnt object and say that i would be in partial like they did when i talked about getting a job over the summer a few days ago)...they r worried about me working again though....but i need the cash flow! i do not like asking for gas money and i would like to go out shopping and buy stuff again...what can i say i love to shop...ne ways...the night at the bfs went amazingly!!! it was so nice to fall asleep with his arms around me....but i cannot lie and say that i am not glad that i can get back to my routine today...god i am pathetic!!!