J'ai regrette
a list
i am sorry......
1) for all of the stress i have caused those who are closest to me
2) for bringing my parents to their wits end time and time again
3) for not being strong enough to conquer this disease
4) for not dying when it would have been easier than living
5) for not living when it would be harder than dying
6) for those who have tried to help me...i have only let u down and wasted ur time
7) for loving my disease sometimes
8) for letting so much time and energy go to waste on thoughts that just shouldnt matter
9) for letting my mood, my actions, and my thoughts to be continuously run and dominated by food
10) for not feeling as though i ever made my parents proud
11) that with this disease no one could ever be proud of me
12) for not ever being perfect enough
13) for letting the days fly by even though i know deep down that im only given one life and that i need to grab those days and live them
14) for drinking coffee rather than eating
15) for needing help....and for no one being able to help me
if i could just make things right...if only........and if that never happens then i am sorry for that to
o god....please forgive me.....i am a sin
a list
i am sorry......
1) for all of the stress i have caused those who are closest to me
2) for bringing my parents to their wits end time and time again
3) for not being strong enough to conquer this disease
4) for not dying when it would have been easier than living
5) for not living when it would be harder than dying
6) for those who have tried to help me...i have only let u down and wasted ur time
7) for loving my disease sometimes
8) for letting so much time and energy go to waste on thoughts that just shouldnt matter
9) for letting my mood, my actions, and my thoughts to be continuously run and dominated by food
10) for not feeling as though i ever made my parents proud
11) that with this disease no one could ever be proud of me
12) for not ever being perfect enough
13) for letting the days fly by even though i know deep down that im only given one life and that i need to grab those days and live them
14) for drinking coffee rather than eating
15) for needing help....and for no one being able to help me
if i could just make things right...if only........and if that never happens then i am sorry for that to
o god....please forgive me.....i am a sin
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you don\'t appear to care about yourself, how can anyone else care about you??
You appear selfish and in great need of attention...that doctor is trying to help you why would you HATE anyone that would want you to heal? You nust have a death wish...if you don\'t get help you will get it and leave everyone behind to suffer....that is selfish
it isn\'t about being selfish. the people that suffer from the same ed, they know what you are talking about. sure maybe deep down sometimes we all need/want attention, but that isn\'t what the ed is about. i know you can\'t help it, and sometimes i get so frustrated at myself because i dont understand why i feel the way i do, but i know i can\'t change it. be strong Missy, you\'ll beat this. Believe in yourself.
I\'m glad you didn\'t die when it seemed the easiest thing to do and you\'re parents are fighting for you...they never gave up....it\'s not your fault you hate yourself and love your disease....but it\'s not impossible to change it! In order for someone to help you, you have to LET them! That is the hardest thing in the world to do but you deserve to get better and live a healthy life not to mention am honest to God happy one! If you want to talk message me!