well today was alright.......slept til 12:30 (love weekends).....sleeping in means less food! i vacuumed the house and went grocery shopping with my mom (ugh).....but i guess it could have been worse...luckily im not one of those who panics at the food store...then i spent the rest of the day with my sister....i love my sister so much..she is the only one i will willingly go out with and actually wanna be tehre with at anytime....matt keeps calling me....i wish i hadnt accidentally kissed him!!! i know i know..how do u accidentally kiss someone right? i didnt fall into his face or ne thing...it was just a reaction i had after hugging him goodnight!!! im so regretting it now! i dont like him that way but im afraid to tell him!!! omg i hate this ......it stresses me out so much!!! he keeps calling and i dont wanna talk!....well my friend jen asked me to go with her to perdu for 5 days on a road trip...she said all i would need is $$$ for gas and food (haha right?)......im afraid to go! i mean it might be fun...but she doesnt know about my disorder!!!! and im afraid to get out of my comfort zone.....and what if matt's going!!!?????
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I think you should go on the trip. I like going away because it takes me away from reality for a while and I forget I have ED. When I go away, though, it is always with people who know about my disorder. Maybe you should tell your friend. If she\'s a true friend she will understand and be supportive. If you don\'t go, you might end up regretting it later. About Matt, maybe you should tell him you are just looking for a friend right now. Don\'t tell him you didn\'t really mean to kiss him. When I was dating my husband he kissed me once after we broke up and then told me a week later he wished he never kissed me. This broke my heart and is something I will never forget.