well we ended up goin to bingo..which isnt bad cuz i go there with my mom and grandma every week anyways (yes i am a real party animal!!!)...but i dont know when i have friends there with me i feel like im expected to entertain them....i hate the feeling of being the hostess.....too much pressure...gotta make sure everyone is having a good time cuz if they arent then they wont wanna see u ne more....then my friends wanted to go out afterward...i dont know but i hate going out alot but even more i hate having to be out late...i have my comfort zone which involves eating steamed broccoli at 10pm...and when im not home to do this every night i dont feel right and i panic......
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I totally understand, not wanting to be the hostess, people found out my birthday is coming up, and told me why don\'t u have drinks at ur house. Im just like u its too much pressure, and i want ppl to have a good time, and then i wouldn\'t have a good time myself. btw i love bingo!!
i understand too - i hate feeling that kind of pressure. i also hate that i am becoming less and less sociable due to fear of eating. it\'s terrible.
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It\'s great that you\'ve been able to go out, even if you have to force yourself. That\'s one thing that I hate about all of this--the isolation and making excuses not to go out and wondering how long it will be until my friends give up on me. But it sounds like you\'re trying to push yourself to go out so good job!
i wanted to let you know, im a HUGE bingo fan, not even kidding!