well today is goin alright..im at college right now...got my giant cup of joe next to me...my mind is boggled though...ive got two guys who both wanna go out on dates with me this weekend....and i really would rather crawl into my bed alone and just let the time pass....i dont know what others see in me that makes them wanna spend time with me....i try so hard to do the whole positive affirmations thing i learned in the last treatment center i was in...while im walking down the hall i repeat to myself (in my head of course...i dont need anyone to know how truely crazy i really am)....that i am gorgeous...that others r jealous...that people think that i have it all together...and that i have alot going for me.......Even though i really dont believe ne of these things alot of the time it's supposed to help me feel better about myself...maybe one of these times it will all click and it will make me feel better......but i guess only time will tell
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that sounds like an interesting method....although i don\'t think i would be able to do it!! i\'m usually just thinking i look completely out of place and people are staring at me oh god oh god... so then i act all aloof and unfriendly so people think i\'m scary!
i think you should try and go on one of these dates (or both!) maybe you could suggest something that wouldn\'t involve food? maybe you would feel a little more willing that way.... you deserve to have fun and get attention from those guys, you\'re only young once and you might regret it later on...:p
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that sounds like an interesting method....although i don\'t think i would be able to do it!! i\'m usually just thinking i look completely out of place and people are staring at me oh god oh god... so then i act all aloof and unfriendly so people think i\'m scary!
i think you should try and go on one of these dates (or both!) maybe you could suggest something that wouldn\'t involve food? maybe you would feel a little more willing that way.... you deserve to have fun and get attention from those guys, you\'re only young once and you might regret it later on...:p
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Two guys, wow! I wish I could get even just one guy to notice me. lol. And keep tellign yourself you are beautiful, because it is the truth!
oh i know what you mean...earlier this year i had a guy that liked me, then hated me because his friend liked me too...lol and like 2 weeks ago i had this bad 3 day sortof relationship....it sucks because they\'re nice people but it just isn\'t interesting...and i know what you mean, like why do people want to spend time with you (not you, i mean, in general....lol) cause like i know to me i feel like i\'m this really lame person, why would anyone like me....but it\'s just because you look like you have it all together...they can\'t tell anything is wrong inside you or anything. which is sortof nice.
oh yea and i started doing positive affirmations like two days ago...it only works sometimes....haha
ok well ttyl, jlynn