8/18/2013

Meh, I'm ok. Still pissed with myself for sleeping so much. Had bad headache today probably from sleeping to much or not eating because I slept too much. made myself go out today. Didn't need anything but went to walmart and got a few things. Went to dinner with a friend. I'm probably going to be paying all week for sleeping so much-I never seem to learn. didn't feel like going to Sephora so I'll get by without the makeup, no biggie. Missing him of course. Wednesday will be 2 weeks. Talked with a friend last week and she agreed with me (as does my sis and my therapist) that it wasn't #4 who came between us. It was his best friend. #4 lives hundreds and hundreds of miles away. They've had next to no time together in person. It's the best friend who meets all his needs (other than sexual of course). It's the best friend who told him he deserved better and that I was taking advantage of him (have not figured THAT one out yet). It's his best friend he spends all of his spare time with.
But, you know it really doesn't matter that it was the best friend, not #4, who came between us. HE'S the one who let go. HE'S the one who went looking for #4 instead of talking to me about things and giving us a chance to fix it. Whether #4 or the best friend, the end result is the same.